Reaction/ripple effect to shocking news
Well today was another knock down drag out at my place. Yes, I was giving the spouse a ration of S*** because the new flame is always watching my daughter. So he of course didn't like being called on the carpet for it. So I told him, ok if she is going to be the one you fall back on all the time, what about this summer? He shrugged his shoulders and admitted he was at a loss over what to do. I supplied a solution.......... You ready for it? I told him with a big smile how I'd be happy to move back into the house for the summer, no problem, that this was the perfect solution to the problem..... He of course was understandably mortified at the thought. He told me I needed to leave him alone and and quit giving him a hard time, he just wated to get on with his relationship with Kerry(the neighbor). So I then said, Do you feel that I am getting an even deal here???? He said no he didn't feel I was, but since I had wanted the divorce in the first place, I had no right to make demands on him. Well I disagree. And yes, it got ugly, heated, loud, my neighbor had a front row seat and my son showed up in the middle of it. So Kurt left furious. I guess he realizes that his request for my blessing of him and Kerry is never going to happen. He kept whining to me, how he isn't doing anything wrong........... he needed me to be ok with it cause the stress is killing him......... I said, hope you get a disability first before it kills you. I think he is asking too much of me. I've already lost alot since the stroke. Yeah, this is a bitter twisted blog entry, but I had to write it. I feel better. I refuse to let this turn me into a bitter twisted person. Or continue to be treated as if I'm retarded or just a second class citizen that holds no importance.
But I question myself, if I will always have to be an adversary to being treated awfully. I did not ask for this stroke. I have been positive and worked hard to recover, I've even volunteered here to help others on their path ( don't know if I've been any good or a help, but I tried.)
Pam
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