BEING TESTED, AGAIN
OUR SON LEFT YESTERDAY TO GET HIS DEGREE AT CENTRAL UNIVERSITY, ABOUT 2 HOURS AWAY.IM HAPPY FOR HIM,I HUGGED, KISSED HIM, TOLD HIM I LOVE HIM AND CRIED SOME CAUSE ILL MISS HIM AND HIS HELPING ME. I CRIED AFTER HE LEFT, FOR ME SINCE ILL BE HOME ALONE!NOW DONT GET ME WRONG, IM GLAD HES GETTING HIS DEGREE , STARING HIS OWN LIFE BUT HERE I SIT HOME ALONE, AGAIN! I WAS TESTED FOR MY STROKE, MY EMOTIONS, WHAT I CAN DO AND WHAT I CANNOT DO.MY DISABILITIES AND HOW THEY CHANGED MY LIFE. I LOST FRIENDS. I CANNOT DRIVE ANY MORE.I WAS TESTED AGAIN ON MY MARRIAGE. AFTER 1 YEAR OF MY STROKE, MY HUSBANDS JOB MOVED THEM 120 ONE WAY. SO 5 DAYS A WEEK ,HE LIVES UP NORTH AND HE COMES HOME ON THE WEEKENDS. WE APPRECIATE EACH OTHER MORE.NOW MY SON LEFT YESTERDAY AND ONCE AGAIN, IM TESTED ON LIVING BY MYSELF DAY AND NITES FOR 5 DAYS TIL MY HUSBAND COMES HOME. CAN I BE BY MYSELF, THERE I GO AND DEPEND ON FRIENDS AGAIN, WILL I FALL AND LAY THERE FOR A FEW DAYS,IS MY NEIGHBORHOOD SAFE FOR A DISABLED PERSON OR IS SOMEONE GOING TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME BEING ALONE ESPECIALLY AT NITE!, CAN I DO THIS OR BE FORCED TO QUITE MY 2 DAY A WEEK JOB AND MY STROKE CLUB AND LIVE UP NORTH WITH MY HUSBAND.I FEEL LIKE ,OK, YOU SURVIVED A STROKE, YOUR PART TIME MARRIAGE, NOW WITH YOUR SON GONE, WE LL SEE IF YOU CAN LIVE BY YOURSELF, GET THE MAIL, HIRE A SNOW SHOVELER IN THE WINTERS A POSSIBLE BLACKOUT! I KNOW MY MINDS WONDERING!!! TO MUCH BUT THESE ARE THINGS YOU MUST THINK ABOUT ,NOW THAT YOUR ALONE. NOW I NEED TO CARRY MY PHONE WITH ME AT ALL TIMES AND GET A MED ALERT IN CAUSE I FALL!!
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