Summer is gone
Just thinking the last few days how a lot has changed this past summer. Over the past years 75% or better of the yard work and other projects were mine to accomplish. Daddy in law was here to supervise me and just chew the fat with. I had my health and could go for hours working inside or out. I had the habbit of when I saw my father in law doing some work he shouldn't of dropping what I was doing and do the job for him.
This past summer all that changed. Daddy in law is gone. Granted he is better off now, no more pain or suffering, but that doesn't make missing him any easier at times. I miss him being there supervising me and chewing the fat. Thankfully I have the memories of him being here, and at times I tend to walk up to his house and just sit where we sat to chat. There are times I think he is talking to me from the grave.
Another change, I can't do the work I used to do. As most of you know my health went to pot as I had the silent heart attack. I am able to get a little house work done, but I am slower than molasses compared to how I used to be able to do it. Guess what really got me going is watching kitty's niece and nephew and a couple of their friends taking down the weeds outside that was my job in the past. For the last few days they have been at it, and all I could do was sit on the porch and watch. I did try to help. I got the lopers out, cut 2 weeds and was worn out. Needless to say I got mad at myself when I saw these young people going at it like I did and I couldn't. Boy did I ever hear daddy in law from the grave, "serves you right you did it to me" again.
Hopefully once they get this defibulator in and I heal, I will be able to regain my stamina and some strength back. Then in a sense like our survivors I will have to learn my limitations when comes to getting things done around here. To tell the truth I can't wait for that day to come. I think at times I some how empithyze with our survivors as they battle back to some sort of normalcy.
Sorry for the rambling, just hoping this will help me accept my new way of life getting things done.
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