It's the Most <fill in the blank> Time of the Year!
And, once again, I feel lke I'm in a crucible. Presure, presure, presure. There doesn't seem to be enough time in a day or days in the last couple of months to get on top of the whole holiday thing. Throw in teh fact that my first stroke anniversary is December 26, and, well, I'm a little nervous about that.
Sam keeps trying to make me sleep later and take naps. He wants me to try to relax more. I just don't seem capable of doing it. It eats at me until I get up and get going again.
I did take a step back, after the initial stroke, and let go of a lot of the things that were on my plate. I'm not runnig Sunday school this yhear, and don't even think I'll throw my name in the hat for next year. I'm just teaching 1 Sunday a month. I didn't even participate in the Christmas program this year. I just didn't have the energy. I'm not working any more. Stoped that in June. So, wouldn't one think that my stress would be lower without those 2 "big item tickets" off my plate this year? Then, how come I feel just as up against a wall as I did last year?
When will it be less stressful? When will I be able to handle things better?When will I stop feeling like I'm being squeesed to see how long it will take me to pop? I wish I knew.
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