new frustrations
dan has been in and out of the ER a couple times over the last week... he has this awfull lower rt pain.... everytest under the sun has been done... he just sleeps and sleeps.... I sure wish i knew ... did a scan of his organs nothing.... the man is just in so much pain and so tired ----- he is not exactley uncooperative and actually for once this isent behavioral....i just feel like more and more get taken from us all the time... the stroke and its effects won't go away i know this but can new things just STOP!!!! I barley have a relationship with the 15 who is going through boyfiend issues right now ... and of course we are talking but I'm just not there for her as I would normally be ... the complications in our world are many---- just as they are for lots of people. but I'm really starting to feel like the biblical job.... gosh i sure hope i'm/ my family is not an example of god proving to the devil that i am faithfull... but man talk about grandious thinking huh... that i would even dare to compare myself/ourselves to that level... but i guess the lessons apply the same.... we know not why...... I'm waiting for that reward though... see apparently I need lessons, cause just like a puppy i need a reward to be good.... just one of those messed up woe is me days...... nancyl
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