the more i know the more i dont know
dan has been progressing latley - but now he has taken to his bed and has decided not to get up.. he will not give an explanation.. has indicated he plans to stay there for 2 days --- problem this is day three..i am so frusterated... and yes we do things when he is up and moving- but not so much that he should feel the need to rest for days at a time... and he is always in control of when we go home ,if he wants to leave ect.... at this point its kinda like if laying in bed and sleeping/watching TV is all he wants to do well that can be done in a nursing home... i thought he would like to be home with me but maybe not--- i'm trapped at home with himgt`... and yeas trapped is the word for it... i sorta feel like he is getting some certain enjoyment out of this... its like the ultimate control or something... and then i need to ground myself and remember the man had a stroke ... he has lost so much, but i keep loosing to.. try to have some sort of life, but now i'm getting so depressed because this is a new spin on the stroke not getting up or out of bed.. i mean what the heck??? no answers just more problems so many people say to me why do you have him at home ? well i'm starting to wonder to.. i mean the nursing home has a bed to..and right now thats all he wants anyhow... just venting
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