Will he be the same again?
The love of my life had a stroke on May 5,2012. Pre stroke he was a very talented man, played guitar, sang, awesome cook and dearly loved riding his Harley "Babe". Now he can do none of that. He is paralized on his left side and also has left side vision cut. He has no pleasures in life it seems. We use to play games on the internet where we would join game rooms and play together now his vision has put a stop to even that simple pleasure. Watching TV together is a joke, he can only see half the screen and rarley looks at it because it makes him nausious. I just can't believe that life can be so cruel as to take away every single pleasure that a person has. Sometimes I sit and watch him sleep and think to myself " if thats where he gets his pleasure from he can sleep as long as he wants to", then I turn away and curse life for being so cruel. We have only been together for 2 years and are planning to be married in the latter part of this year. He is 54 and I am 48, we were so looking foward to our "golden" years as neither of us have small children to raise and our home is paid for. The plans for long bike rides and gigs with his band are now just hopes and dreams of when he gets better. I refuse to use the word "if" in that sentence not for my sake but for his. He has made the statement that if this is all there is left then there's nothing left for him here so I keeping telling him that he will get better, that he will sing, play guitar and ride again. Just needed to say this to someone. Thanks for the space to do it in.
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