Just a difficult time
We remain in transition here and as usual, I have no clue what I am doing.
I scheduled Irma for Friday mornings. This was for me to have time out, make appointments for me. With the project at work, I had to put in extra hours and used that time for work. Came home for lunch and quick rest with Bruce, and then back to work. Cathy, in the meantime needs a morning once a week to accomodate the kid's camp schedule. And Pema was off for a week, Irma covered her, again mornings.
I was signed off on the project by the State last Friday - finally. I planned to get Bruce out. Monday I was allowed to help him on the Estim bike, I was OK to go from my Doctor. It was painful, but he did so well it was worth it. I offered the pool afterwards, but he refused. Tuesday and Wednesday were bears weatherwise. Again, Bruce gets up early and we are ready to go by 9:30 am, before the heat sets in. We were going to go to Barnes and Noble and look at the new Nook that Consumer Reports hailed was the best. We also have two gift certificates and who loves looking at books more than Bruce? Plus we had a free coupon for an Iced Coffee - his favorite. He said he did not want to go out.
I did all the phone calls and paperwork - which Bruce does help with - that had accumulated the past three weeks, so it was productive from a house standpoint. Tree service is coming Friday to finish up. Bruce needed an appointment with the Peridontist, bills, appointment with the financial advisor. I was also able to do some cleaning out.
Wednesday we woke up to 80 degrees and by the time I got home it was over 100 with severe thunderstorms enroute. Funny, in North Haven we got almost nothing, but most of the state was bombarded. Payback for that 30 inches of snow in January probably - LOL. So going out and cooking out were off the list. It poured this morning, again the front gutters are backed up. This makes Bruce crazy and Mary Beth even crazier, since she has to spot me on the ladder. Our dear Carl said try to get the tree guys to help us out, if not he would do them next Thursday. This is the short side of the house and I am about 8 inches too short for the small ladder, so frustrating.
So tonight Carl came for his visit. I told Bruce three times today that tomorrow was my double at work. Irma was coming in the morning and Cathy in the evening. He is so anxious to get out. We will have our usual errands for the weekend and some fun things on the list. Monday is his Peridontist. Weather is to be wonderful. Finally tonight all the windows open, 70 degrees, very low humidity. But Monday and Wednesday are his bike-schedule days and again, next week he will miss both.
I can't seem to find a balance anymore. It so looks like Bruce is not coming first and then I look back, see all the stuff I have exposed him to and still he is looking to me for direction and guidance. Today he did not have milk in his little fridge, but could not figure out to go into the kitchen to get it out of the regular fridge, which he has total access to, even from the WC.
So part of me says, this is my fault in that I don't encourage problem-solving. Another part says with me being gone so much that will improve. He won't ask much from the caregivers, so will figure out stuff himself. Or he will just sit in the WC, waiting for me to get home, and watch TV. Morning caregivers are not best for him. He has his most energy then. They would be happy to take him for a ride, but he is used to a full morning of errands and jaunts and is tired and ready for time out by 4pm, when the caregivers can do dinner, wash up and bed.
The real tell here is Kira. She is really smart and she has no clue. She is a people Kitty. Loves attention and has to be with her people. She has taken to going upstairs after breakfast and coming down about 8pm (my usual time home) for her treat (medication) and bed with us. And I think if the cat is confused, what is this doing to Bruce? Many hard questions.
Good week all. Debbie
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