"that dream"
well i finally got my gift of acceptance of dans stroke---- others have talked in the past about how when you dream of your loved one with their new health condition - you have accepted what is...... i dreamt of dan 2 nights in a row.. night one he was walking with me but was very frail and small - almost child like in stature.. i was assisting him walking..... night two i dreamt the same dream but dan was of normal ( the new normal) stature and walking with me with assistance.... kind of nice--- if it indeed means i am accepting life as it is........... dan has been better of late still limits his food and liquid intake to bare minimum-- but so far so good.....although he woke last night with a terrible "ache" all over ... he said it just throbbed-- all in aphasia language of course-- try deciphering that at 3 am... but i gave him a tyl. 3 about as strong as i dare go for his bowel issues...... then he said i feel really wierd-- woo- woo dizzy ( and it was to soon for the tyl to be the culprit) - i asked if he felt like it might be a seizure coming on he said yes.... so i gave him a valium and just tried to keep him relaxed... he did not seizure - but i doubt my attempted intervention helped ( it takes about 20 min for oral valium to kick in)... but at last he finally relaxed enough and was able to sleep -- but he did say thank you for making him feel better.. so i guess i am good for something??!! now tonight I'm up late cant sleep to save my soul so - i figured i would "blog" a little.. the blogging does seem to "ground a person" and gives a pretty accurate record of who what where and when things have happened for each of us to reflect on...
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