IS THIS ALL THAT'S LEFT OF ME
OK - I NEED TO KNOW - BUT ALREADY THINK I KNOW THE ANSWER - IS THIS ALL I GET BACK FROM ME? - MY CVA HAS BEEN ABOUT 1.5 YEARS AGO. IT TOOK OUT MY LEFT SIDE - MY LEFT ARM AND HAND ARE STILL NOT WORKING - I CAN HOBBLE AROUND WITH A CANE BUT WANT SOMEONE WITH ME - I STILL DON'T FEEL THAT STABLE TO VENTURE OUT ON MY OWN - I DON'T HAVE MY DRIVERS LICENSE AND WANT THEM BACK BUT AM AFRAID TO TRY WITH ONE SIDE ONLY - MY SUBLEXED SHOULDER IS HURTING NOW
WHERE IT HAS SEPERATED AT MY SHOULDER & UP MY NECK- I AM SCHEDULED TO HAVE ENDOSCOPIC CARPAL TUNNEL ON THE ONLY GOOD HAND I HAVE - I USE MY WHEELCHAIR AT HOME CAUSE I USE IT AS MY LEFT HAND TO HELP ME CARRY THINGS AROUND THE HOUSE AND OPEN ANY TYPE OF FOOD ITEMS WITH MY KNEES - I HAVE LEARNED TO IMPROVISE ON MANY THINGS - BUT I MISS BEING ME - WHERE DID I GO - I KNOW IM NOT COMING BACK I THOUGHT I WOULD LEARN TO GET USE TO THIS - BUT I JUST KID MYSELF - I'VE WORKED SO HARD TO GET WHERE IM AT - BUT FEAR IV'E HAVE PLATAUED AND THERE IS NO FURTHER PROGRESS TO BE MADE - I'VE WORKED SO HARD THE LAST 1.5 YEARS AND NOW I FEEL LIKE - WHY BOTHER - MY LIFE CONSISTS OF NON STOP DOCTORS,HOSPITALS & THERAPIES...IS THIS ALL I GET THE REST OF MY LIFE - NOT MUCH TO LOOK FORWARD TO - AND I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ANYONE SAY ONE MORE TIME TO STAY POSITIVE & LOOK AT HOW FAR YOU'VE COME - OMG CRAWL INSIDE ME AND FEEL MY PAIN - PHYSICALLY & MENTALLY - SORRY IM SO NEGATIVE - BUT ITS JUST HOW IM FEELING AT TH MOMENT - BELIVE IT OR NOT - I ACTUALLY DO HAVE GOOD DAYS
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