Another year come and gone
We are having a very uneventful day, which is good sometimes. Jeff took the holiday off so it's just me and Dan. The morning routine wears me out so very much. We were going to go to a movie today but Dan was just too tired. In all honesty, I was too tired too, so I was a little relieved that he decided not to go. He seems to be so tired lately. He's told me several times that he's tired of being tired.
Dan has an appointment Jan 23 with a surgeon about his impending surgery. I know it's something that needs to be done and it's been postponed as long as possible. I've always feared that if he went in for this surgery that he'd not come home again. I don't know what the new year brings, none of us do. I just know that we're both tired all of the time. Dan just doesn't seem to enjoy much of anything anymore. Well, except for eating! Food seems to have become the only thing he does enjoy.
I read Sue's blog about coping with the death of Ray and her Mum and I wonder how she does it. I wonder how I will do it when the time comes. I know that I will miss Dan with all of my heart. I will miss the sound of the constant TV, his snoring, in general, just having him here. It's hard sometimes to remember the good times because it makes me so sad.
I hear the King calling. I'm going to make some popcorn, Dan will watch football, and I'll take ornaments off the tree. These are things we've done for 25 years on New Years Day. At least not everything has changed!
Two weeks from today I'll be headed to sunny St. Petersburg, Florida! Woooo Hooo!!
Happy New Year to all of my StrokeNet friends. May you have a happy, healthy, hopeful new year.
Mary Jo
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