reminiscing
I,Ll be quick....I miss my farm, even in this blizzard, I miss my old life, I miss the fact ibhavent been as good and attentive parent as I should have been to Bethany.... My god she had a anaphylactic type reaction that sent her to the ER ...about a month ago and her boyfriend had to take her....i miss my privacy, I miss letting the dogs run, I miss looking at my barn, I miss looking at my gazebo all covered in snow.. I miss my deck..in the summer.....yes I am where I need to be absolutely given dans condition, we had to tell him we rented the place to keep water from freezing otherwise he did kinda melt when he seen others at our farm... Luckily the new owners understood.....out of site out of mind for Dan, we can't return it is to devastating for him... Kinda like when he " rediscovered" my mom had died... Out of site out of mind.... Just blog thoughts, Dan had a sad day to start with, he cried and was questioning god and why him..... And now as we wind down for the night ..us caregivers.. We relive the day, we can't cry with them... I have, but we generally have to be strong , rationalize and encourage... So that leaves us caregivers with the lonely evening reflection of the day.......
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