I dont know what happened last night
Right now my brain is in a fog. I have been having memory loss a lot since..well I cant remember how/when it started but it was around the time I started getting dizzy/ having seizures again..I think. Well lastnight I went to sleep at about 10:30. I think I woke up an hour later. All I can remember is I woke up scared to death and confused, I think I was in my bed. but then I remember getting off the floor. I don't know how or why I was on the floor. Maybe I fell off my bed? So I got back in bed and tried to fall back asleep but each time I felt myself dozing off, I would feel like I was getting dizzy and jerk back awake. Like my head would literally jerk to the opposite side each time I fell into that half sleep half awake stage. I began to cry. Its hard enough having to fear dizziness/seizures during the day. Sleep is supposed to be a time for the brain to rest but I fear falling asleep more than being awake. I just prayed and finally I fell back asleep around 2:30. I woke up a few more times but was so exhausted I was able to sleep until about 7am.
When I woke up, my left (weak) wrist was very sore. It was sore lastnight as well. I keep trying to straighten it out but it is very painful. I fell asleep with my splint on but now I see it laying on the floor. I cant remember much from yesterday/this week/last week, but I do remember my guy friend did some exercises with me straightening my wrist. He was using all of his strength to straighten my wrist and shocked that it wasn't hurting me. It really wasn't. It just felt like a regular stretch, but now it and my fingers really hurts. I cannot blame it on him though because my left ankle hurts too. Lastnight when I got off of the floor I did like I usually do, bent my good leg and pushed off with my weak leg. The knee on my good leg was burning though from carpet burn and I could not walk when I woke up because any pressure I put on my left ankle hurted. I had to pivot and hold on to the walls just to get to my bathroom.
So like I said I don't know what happened lastnight. I did go to the doctor...one day this week. I cant remember when. The nurse said my sugar was ok but they still took blood to check my keppra levels again. The only advice she gave me was to eat 3 meals a day and maybe take a multivitamin and calcium since I dont eat dairy or meat. I have been eating a lot since my dizzy spell/ seizure Friday morning but since I had to get my bloodwork done yesterday, I did not eat until the afternoon/evening and forgot to take my medicine until about 8:30 that night. I took it again before I went to sleep though.
It just feels like no matter how hard I try to do better for myself something is always there to bring me back down. I cant even remember my friends name that I spent the last 2 days hanging out with. Im afraid to take a shower. I just dont understand why this stuff keeps happening to me now out of all the years I been fine even years ago days I ate nothing all day and forgot to take my medicine, this stuff never happened so why now?
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