i can be a crab too.
We all know how crabby , moody Dan can be ( with good reason).. but sometimes i can be a real grouch to... today and days past i have noticed Dan sorta "times his needs" and not in a good way... or else it is my imagination... example of today.. Dan was doing his cleaning ritual of the sinks, and all that... i sit and wait for him ( standing and seizure risk and all that ) anyhow today - he was cleaning and just wouldnt finish up a little quicker . ... because he was having a BM while he was cleaning.. he just couldnt stop the task at hand to take care of his URGENT need... and I get the true brunt of it.. because then i have the wonderful mess to clean up... and it was one of the more avoidable things we encounter ( plenty is not).. that darn OCD.. so he clearly could tell i was irritated ... and it wasent just todays thing... other days / times i will ask his - want to get up ( from bed ) or wherever... and nope, then i walk into the other room and he does this - "HEY" that just sends a cerain anger down my spine... not the task - but the fact I JUST ASKED YOU..... and his HEY is so demanding and expecting... that i concure is mostly my imagination... I need a break - a real one - the kind where you physically are not here... i do get time away from him - the kids do help , but this is a thing he seems to "enjoy " doing to me ?? But i dont have it that tough i do know that... so beyond my little rant to my - diary- of life... i will move on..... deep breathe , and smile for the day !!.......
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