Come here...... now go away
Ok. So as some of you know after stroke , you may have had some OCD tendencies. Well, I have and boy is it a pain. as some of you know relationships and marriage a part of that is closeness. Well tonight while doing the dinner dishes my husband wanted to give me a kiss. Before the stroke,not a big deal to have a distraction but this time it wasn't as easy as that. I get a physical pain when I have to stop what I'm doing. A chest pain. A stomach ache. I know I must be hypocritical to him because I want him close to me and when he does sometimes I push him away to do something that is important to me at that time. It's hard not to say,'don't take it personal'. For the longest time the stroke was something I had to deal with. I think it was because it's hard to understand something that you don't know a lot about on top of not showing 'stroke'. It struck me today while baking cookies ( i was in a mood) and listening to 'This American Life' on NPR radio and they were talking about the vets coming home and dealing with PTSD.((Post traumatic Stress Disorder)) I was diagnosed with PTSD after my abusive relationship with my ex husband and I was after my stroke. The show was about how the vets get such a bad wrap for going through so many emotions after service. I realized my OCD and PTSD have some of the same symptoms.
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You may not have positive or loving feelings toward other people and may stay away from relationships.
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Suddenly become angry or irritable.
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Have a hard time sleeping.
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Have trouble concentrating.
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Fear for your safety and always feel on guard.
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Be very startled when someone surprises you
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OCD
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Obsessive thoughts
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Fear of dirt or germs or overconcern about body smells/secretions or the proper functioning of the body
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Overconcern with order, neatness, and exactness
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Fear of thinking bad thoughts or doing something embarrassing
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Constantly thinking of certain sounds, words, or numbers, or a preoccupation with counting or checking
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Constant need for approval or the need to apologize
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Fear that something terrible will happen or fear of harming yourself or someone else
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Fear of dirt or germs or overconcern about body smells/secretions or the proper functioning of the body
They're not cut an dry a like but some of the same feeling are the same. I do meditate, acupuncture and they help. I've tried to explain my thought process but its hard
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