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i am so original with my titles... lol... Dan is still "stable" he has been in a better mood, but has basically been in bed for 3 days... of course it is sooooo... cold here-- that i believe his point is , "why get out of bed to move from the bed to the couch" .. his mood is ok he eats and drinks and is somewhat pleasant . Although some days i wonder. Yesterday the nurse was here hooking him up for a IV and the grandson was here . the 2.5 yr old walked in said Hi- grandpa and Dan replied Hi - stupid ass... not in a mean way just in a matter of fact way.. the nurse was sorta suprised but at the same time has learned about dan.. and dan in all honesty was not being mean and had no idea what he said was inappropriate... poor little weston is gonna have a vocabulary and a half when he goes to school... but of course we will do our best to stay on top of those issues... what is kinda bitter sweet is walking dan to the bathroom and little weston walks behind dan with his little hand on his leg and say's -- "i helping gumpa"--- makes me think about the future.. at least we have a future.. last year at this time ( approx) i started to think the end of the world was coming - and for us it sure felt like it-. This year i do feel a bit more optimistic. even if dan hasent gotten out of bed for 3 days... he would if i could offer him something to do.. but when it is 10 below and the windchill much more than that - one does not hop in the car just to "cruise around".. if it warms up we will venture out just to get out of the house... in all honesty even in ND we usually don't see it this cold this early.. this crap sets in usually in January not December...I think about a trip somewhere, but the work involved is to much... and the chance of tipping Dans scale of mood to great.. i am kinda enjoying the less demanding version of life at the moment.. life is no where close to perfect --- no , natta, nothing close to even normal. but it is what it is... nancyl
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