opened my big mouth again
I was reading Katrina's post about how she may say somethings and it is interpreted as mean or off. That hit me like a ton of bricks. That so explains the story of my life. I've noticed that my husband is more gentle than I am so when I react or speak, he takes it as the correct way I'm trying to convey my thoughts or feelings. I told him I'm a walking contradiction. Don't say this to me but understand that I'm always not meaning this when I say that. I'm sure he is walking on eggshells. I have apologized before but because I 'look' normal, I should have better control over my emotions. I'm just ranting here. I feel bad about things I say and do but my emotions are so raw and I say or do what I mean and that doesn't mean I don't appreciate everything he's done. I've told him to come onto this site and talk with other caregivers to better understand. he was raised if you have a problem, you deal with it yourself. This 'stroke' concept is foreign to his family. Like I should have been fixed by now. You do all your therapies and such for you to get better. I've shared with him many times that this not affected me but the family as a whole. I guess some people are just raised with a way to be and deal with things. Stinks when you come from a medical background and family and you understand stroke as personal as well as professional.
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