July 2nd 8:30 a.m. Finalized
I know I've been sporadically here as of late.
As many of you know I'm going through a divorce and it's an odd feeling. Not so much as the procedure but the fact I'm stumped because I know he exhausted with the memories pre stroke and that is where I am at a loss. I have no idea. I've excepted the idea it's OK not to always understand. I guess because all I know is the past 5 years and knowing I'm going to start fresh kinda scares me for he's all I've ever known if you think about it. I know if I had extra income coming in I'd be OK. Living on SSID isn't fun. i'm currently at my parents and there is NO rush for me to leave. I love being here for I'm a beach kinda person and they live near many. ( I refuse to call it Down at the Shore for the whole god darn state is basically a 'shore line') I digress .. I feel happier for I feel like me, if that makes sense. We get along great. We hardly argued before but the fact he stayed with me for 5 years after the stroke and helped me recover speaks volumes of his character. And we've signed the settlement agreement and it has astonished many people because the monies I got in the settlement, in which he is entitled to,he opted to just have his name removed from all joint accounts and they remain mine. We are very civil which is why I'm befiddled a lot because if we are so good together ..why? But I know understand he has to deal with the past. Again, my memory loss is a blessing and a curse.
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