Feeling Alone
I don't know what is wrong with me these days. I have been so down in the dumps that I rarely speak unless I have to. I feel like I could just melt into the background of life and no one would even notice I was missing. Things just aren't as they should be. My world is out of sink. The days are lonely and time is at a stand still. I get up around 7am and go to bed around 8pm. I can't go to sleep so I lay there and watch tv or listen to Mike snore. No one comes to visit or calls unless it is one of my grown ass children needing something. I am getting very ill with them. Life is not the same as it use to be and I just don't see it getting better. I try, I really do to get Mike to do things, but it's no use. He just wants to sleep except for the daily trip to get coffee at the local Huddle House where we sit and watch people come and go with their busy lives. Not a care in the world do they seem to have. I read somewhere that people that were born on the day I was were unlucky in the important things in life. I really think it is true. Every time I think things are going good, WHAM, something else happens to bring me back down to earth and remind me that I was never ment to be happy and content. I don't know where I am going with this babble just needed to get it off my chest I guess and this is the only place I have to write things that my family or Mike won't see. Not that any of them would give a rat's behind. Well Mike would but lord knows he has enough on him than to deal with my issues. Just don't know what to do anymore. It has been forever since I have blogged and I use to get on here and give advice to people and feel like I was helping in some way but now I just don't think I could advise anyone about anything. I don't have that in me at the moment so please forgive me. Maybe one of these days, only time will tell.
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