Plugging along -- kinda feel like eeyore from winnie the pooh
So i couldn't find a ledge high enough to jump from -- both colleen and debbie called me and said - STOP IT -- come down off the ledge..lol… Dan is doing a bit better again - refused his pills through the weekend but ate.. then got all achey and weird feeling and decided maybe just maybe taking his pills is a ok idea… but as we know it changes every day.. the new care giver ( i hired a younger gal ) is working out better than the older gal ( she just was sick so much herself and dan i think just depressed her way to much- go figure) -- the younger gal does a lot of cleaning and more interaction with dan. she likes the job and i made it clear her job depends ( with in reason) on dan liking her… so she cleans a lot and i encouraged her to make a lot of noise while cleaning - he likes the sound of work… and then she spends simple time with him --- watching TV together and she does get him to laugh… i encouraged her to act like a daughter to him, thinking that might be the "IN" .. so far it does appear to be working… Myself i am so depressed over all this i could just lay down and never get up.. but i get up take my own antidepressant and head out to work…. but today seems as though it might be slow so i might just ask if i can opt out of this afternoon and go home and just nap… Dan had me up at the crack of dawn - wanted a shower ( and he needed one ) so i wasn't gonna pass on getting that done… I am just so heart broken over all the destruction the stroke has taken on the family…. Beth had a graduation party - she got her GED last Dec. and we finally got around to having a formal recognition of this…. 6 months, no- 7 months later -- who does that ?? But i have to say -- I so appreciate everyones thoughts and concerns -- it is so important as we all know that we get affirmation we matter .. and you have all done that for me.. when i have needed it -- unfortunately i seem to need a lot of it…. you guys are the BEST ….
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