Physical Therapy Nightmare
I have my regular vestibular physical therapist and she is wise and experienced and cautions me to work steady and not over tax myself. I really like her and I have felt I made good progress but I am always impatient to do more so I can recover faster but she says in time in time and assures me that I am going to be better than I am better than I was. So I have had a substitute and she is young and has energy and gets me on lots of equipment. I can hardly move I am so sore. She doesn't stop me ever. She has how about two more and of I do that. I say that it hurts and she says is it a working hurt. I am so stupid to not just recognize hurt is hurting is hurting LOL! I even said am I going to be feeling this later on and she said yes probably. And what did I think was going to be ok with that well I thought that I was going to be like a normal healthy person working out and that I was going to benefit from working hard and pushing the limits. Right now all I can think of is that I wish I could sit in a jacuzzi for a while and soak off the deep aches and pains and that I plan not to move anything more than necessary tomorrow except to stretch so I don't stiffen up like a tin man tomorrow. So much for my ambition. I want my old therapist back. I find it hard to say NO when the therapist tells me to do stuff. I trust them to know but my first clue is when I did say I had to stop and she said oh good let me know that because I don't know what you are feeling. But that was after she looked at my charted exercises and said I should be doing more than what was written down. I thought oh no maybe I won't get better unless I am doing more then. I would kick myself but that would require moving. So should I just continue down this path and see if I get stronger faster of course not in a million years not a chance will I repeat this experience and I feel like I have been dragged behind a truck so I don't care if I ever move again just let me sit with a blanket and rest with a hot beverage thank you very much. Just because one is capable of doing a thousand reps doesn't mean one should do them. She was absent the day they taught that and I am just plain stupid desperate to walk so lets do the most. AGH. I just learned that there is a difference between a stroke oriented pt and a regular pt because I felt like she was a personal trainer trying to get me to set a personal best rather than just progress through the next step like my old therapist does. I was so enthusiastic too just jumped right in and enjoyed that but not now I am paying for it now beyond what I thought I would. ok so maybe I am just a wimpy kid but I am on norco so I don't have a normal pain boundary when I am at therapy and I am not supposed to be in a work out either I am supposed to watch my blood pressure too and we didn't do any of that. that is why it was so much fun and like a normal gym lol hehehe. my narcotics are not helping my current pain level of 59 nor my stiffness and soreness. I wish I could soak in some Epsom salts but I can't sit in a tub. I am disappointed that I was so foolish and disappointed that I was trusting the olympic trainer here. I should have been tipped off when she said my therapist's plan was underachieving. What was with that? and why did I buy into that? like oh yeah if I rush this then I will be getting my balance back quicker. all I accomplished was to make it unlikely I am going to be moving much in the next couple of days. no practicing then at all much. I guess that the mentality might be to get me at the next level sooner but it isn't the way I am going to do this.
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