Night out on the town............ugh
I went to a dance club with my best friend and I was totally excited. Well I feel my friendship was put to the test over this.
We went to dinner and had a great time. Had cranberry juice in a fancy glass.
Started out great. We sat outside in the by the 'fireplaces' and felt really good with my ear plugs in. It really wasn't packed full of people.
(Let me add in this for it comes up later: she is the one why I shaved my hair off. She has a shunt infection in her head.)
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There was a DJ outside and cigarette smoking ... **cough**
Everybody out there was drinking and I remembered that everyone seems to have fun there while drinking. I'm over that
So she, my bff, was so happy I was out but in the same breath doubting my length of time. So what if I could only last an hour.. ok hour and a half I did my best. The more I thought about it. our friendship was mainly focused around going out. .. I really enjoyed doing that. I feel that since my stroke i hAve grown up in that clubbing and dancing are to boring for me.
So I am not that fun girl that she wants to hang with and the fact that I wasn't sure she understood or did not care that I was struggling. She told me 'After my surgery, I had to get back out there and I got better at dancing." Well she has another friend that she works with and parties. I'm happy for her. The whole time out she was busy texting. Granted i don't talk much nor truly go out much. She said she understood but not sure, I know that trying to explain how I feel with the stroke can't be understood unless y6ou had one or have experience with someone who had a stroke. I don't know I'm just closing in on myself and growing up to not want to party and if she cant understand that.. friendship will have a HUGE bump. I'm still trying to recover . I feel like a mac truck hit me
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