Recovery is like a caterpillar
The strange thing is when I looked up the meaning of recovery:
Recovery: as defined in the dictionary is as a return to a normal state of health, mind, or strength.
Recovery: as defined by a me as stroke survivors has an entirely different meaning. I do not feel as though I will every be the person I once was. I lost a lot, but I gained a lot too. I learned that what my dreams were, were fleeting, but I could change and create new dreams for myself.
Recovery to me is like the transition from a caterpillar to a butterfly. Two important and beautiful living beings that can accomplish things in two very different ways. I learned that I can still do things I just need to learn how to do them differently.
It's the frustration of remembering who I once was and how I did things that holds me back. Its been 15 years, but 2 years ago I started having seizures that are caused by the initial stroke. No matter how long you go, it still feel as though my recovery is not over. Most of the time I think like a butterfly by many times I just want to crawl into my cocoon and wallow in self piety.
I would love to find out your meaning to give me something to think about. I am also trying to do a paper on the subject. I would appreciate people's input or if you want to fill out a short survey and I will be posting what I discover here.
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