Just Blogging Not Complaining
Since my last blog I been complaining about me not being able to do things like walking and doing other things for myself as good as I once was doing when I was getting PT, OT, at home and seems to me I was in better shape physically... That time is gone or the money ran out and my insurances didn't pay any more... I still got one guy from an agency to come in for one hour and help me with small things like cutting toenails putting on skin care products from the knees to my feet since my skin seems to be so dry daily.... My wife still helps me with the other areas and picking out my clothes for the days wear plus ironing if needed...
Mean while my walking is at it's lowest level since the stroke happened 11 or nearly 12 years ago now but of course my left side is still very paralyzed where I can't begin to use it like I want to do but I still ride my exercise bike in the dinning room daily to keep the rest of my body functioning as best I can.... I'm not complaining at all but I just feel so different now when I know at one time I could do more in the early going of my stroke days....
So as I stated I'm not complaining just scared of falling if I try to go back to church each Sunday with my wife.... I'm still able to drive myself anyplace I need to go it's just my walking that scares me should I fall and can't get up on my own strength...
I suppose I will never get my motorcycle license back since I'm still paralyzed on one side plus I would have to do a riding test too now I'm sure so those days are behind me even if I still had my three wheel machine I first had years ago when I first learned how to ride when I worked at the Post office in Houston.... Here soldiers are getting killed daily riding their bikes and not being careful like we all did years ago.....
Anyway as I said I'm just blogging not complaining but I would like to do more, and be better in walking like I once was doing so maybe it will get a bit better soon who knows?? I have to realize now that I have made it to 74 this past July so I am bound to be slower since no one stays young and flexible forever....
My wife has been such a wonderful woman, wife, and caregiver until I know I couldn't have made it this far without her by my side.... She is still holding down her full time job at the bank as a supervisor of the drive in bank branch downtown which she loves to do and has been in banking for many, many years now....
So no complaints as I stated but just would love to do more walking and getting around like I once did everyday without a worry about falling and knowing I can't get back up on my own strength..... I will continue to be careful more next time.... :Doh:
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