Down Day----trying to get up
I don't know why I am having a down day today.....trying to get this darn house in order, my mother in law and daughter in law are coming in 2 weeks...It takes me 3 times as long to get anything done....My mom always had a "perfect" house....I guess I keep trying to live up to her expectations (she passed away many years ago) I feel I am always trying to live up to someones expectations...my husband assured me the other day, it's okay..you do what you can....we are very lucky you can do what you do....just having a"freaking out" moment today and know I will pull it together ........ should be doing something other than sitting here venting but..it helps to get it off my chest....
Have been worried ...John had surgery in January for malignant melanoma, they couldn't find the main node to biopsy to find out if it had spread beyond the origional site..they did find another nest of malignant cells in the same site..His first CAT scan had some abnormal findings, but the second cat scan was good. he has to have dermatology check ups every 3 months...we drive almost 2 hours one way to the VA hospital since I carried the medical insurance and now don't have any..he is a vet so he can get care (wonderful care) at the VA, my sister 8 yrs older has had medical problems, she is rasing her grandson and he has had some trouble lately, one court day went well and he has one more to go...so I have been worried about them also...I just don't cope so well and tend to get overwhelmed.....I need to just put all this in God's hands and let it go.....
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