Take it back!
This is going to be a real shocker for those who haven't heard of mine and Kathy's history. I'm not going to tell all, but highlight.
2 summers ago me and Kathy seperated for about 3 months. I just couldn't stand being around her anymore. She has some major personality flaws that kept me in a perpetual state of being *beep* off. I know no is perfect, but like I said I'm highlighting not going into depth.
We got back together with the agreement that we'd try to work on the flaws we saw in each other. Of course, you can't pretend to be someone your not. After the marriage starting getting rough again I decided that I had had enough. I was going to have a "we should get a divorce" talk with her. That was the day the stroke entered our lives.
While Kathy was in the hospital and had lost her personality I fell back in love with her. It seemed like the stroke would solitify our marriage. She came home and started regaining her personilty minus the flaws and I was excited, but also praying that the parts of her that *beep* me off would just stay gone.
As life would have it, that didn't work out. Her flaws came back with a vengence. Now I'm back to not being able to look at her without getting mad. I'm stuck in the role of being her caregiver. I'll stick with her and continue to help her until she is able to live on her own. Her SSI and SSDI would more than support her.
I know that I'm going to get flamed for all of this. Those who know about our marrital problems either say that the stroke was the reason for them, or take the time to realize it's been comming on for a long time.
I really should be talking to her about our problems instead of blogging them, but she would deliberately back slide just to keep me longer (and yes, she would do that). I'm just tired of feeling like a possession instead of a husband.
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