STARTING OVER
WOW. THIS "STARTING OVER" IS JUST STARTING TO HIT HOME. :bop: I STROKED 12-03, AND WAS MARRIED TO THE MEANEST MOST CALLOUS LETCH ON THE PLANET. AFTER 11 YEARS OF MARRIAGE, I FINALLY CUT HIM LOOSE, IRONICALLY, OUR DIVORCE WAS SIGEND ON THE SECOND ANNIVERSARY OF THE STROKE. I HATE TO CALL IT "MY STROKE" BECAUSE THAT'S LIKE SAYING IT IS "ALL MINE", LIKE IT'S A FRIEND OR SOMETHING.
ANYWAY, I SOLD MY HOUSE, QUIT MY JOB, AND MOVED 500 MILES AWAY TO BE WITH MY NEW LOVE. WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS OVER A YEAR. HE IS NOTHING BUT SWEET AND UNDERSTANDING. ****HOWEVER****. I AM IN A NEW STATE, ( MOSTLY CONFUSION) AND THERE IS THE ALTITUDE CHANGE AND WEATHER CHANGES TO GET USED TO UP HERE IN GOOD OLE' KENTUCKY. ( I AM FROM ALABAMA) ALSO, A NEW JOB THAT'S SO SO SO SO DIFFERENT FROM WHAT I HAVE BEEN USED TO FOR TEN YEARS.
GOOD LORD AM I FOOLING MYSELF. I AM 43 YEARS OLD, A STROKE SURVIVOR WITH SO MANY HEALTH PROBLEMS I QUALIFY FOR DISABILTY. BUT AS LONG AS I CAN WALK AND BREATHE, I WILL NOT APPLY. I WANNA WORK. I TRY TO "MAINSTREAM" AND ACT "NORMAL". IT FOOLS MOST EVERYONE, EXCEPT FOR MYSELF. I AM *****NOT***** THE SAME ENERGETIC STRONG PHYSICALLY ABLE PERSON I USED TO BE.
I AM WONDERING CONSTANTLY IF "THEY" WILL NOTICE. I HOPE NOT. I DON'T WANT ANYONE TO KNOW. I WANNA BE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.
OH WELL, WHAT WE DO FOR LOVE.
KIM
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