Pity Party for one
I haven't been blog for awhile, I am in so much pain at night I have been going to bed early. I am trying to keep work till the surgery, I really don't have a choice we need the income and the health insurance. Luckily I have summers off. Today was not one of my better days, I finally get a call for a job closer to home and I have to pass because of the back surgery. I tried talking to Rod about it, discuss the choices and I was talking to myself. We use to talk so much about so many things and like Jean and Don the Aphasia just kicks the hell out of that. Rod was my rock to lean on.Some days I think he is getting so much back and other days I realize how much we have lost. I know, I know pity party. :nuhuh: Things are so much better than some here have it and I shouldn't complain. I am in so much pain all the time it worries me how much more I can take. I worry if I will be able to take care of us. It is so hard doing everything, being so far away from family there is just no one to take care of me when I can't cook or drive. My optimistic side would say "well it can't get any worse" but the realist in me says "sure it can bring it on". Ignore me it's just the meds starting to kick in.
Lynn
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