Do I stay or do I go
I'm struggling with the decision on whether to stay at my job or not. The con associated with my job that is causing me to want to leave is the supervision responsibility. I only have three staff members that work in my department but I am totally through with being a supervisor. I am done being a professional "caregiver". I no longer want to assist with their professional development, and I have always hated to train. I'm done being responsible for anybody else's work besides mine. I'm done working twice as many hours as I get paid for. It is likely these feelings are associated with the new aspects in my personal life of being a caregiver. I love being a caregiver to my family, my husband in particular, and my rewards and payment come in the form of his physical gains, our emotional gains. I don't have the resources to do this at home and at work both. I feel like I'm giving up - the feeling of defeat - acceptance - resolution. Whatever word is used to make it palateable. I feel like I need the energy at home to deal with the associated emotional battles. My delima is, that if I leave the job, I leave a lot of good money, I leave our health insurance. Finding a job in this community with health insurance is near impossible, and I would have to immediately find new work, where all my time was spent paying for a private health insurance plan.
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