Grieving...AT LAST!
Today marks the first day of turning the page of the past. My marraige of 19 years ended in a disaster 14 years ago. Depression has a way of bringing up unresolved issues from the past and so it did. I realized that I had not turned the page to my 19 year marraige to Bob, who was the man of my life for as long as I can remember. I tried everything to make it work between us. He said he loved me BUT was never open for discussion. I compromised a LOT for this marraige to work. I thought that since "we" loved one another we were bound to work out our problems and make it work. But it never came to be. I LOVED this man with ALL my heart and soul and did not get very much in return because he is the kind of individual who does not open his "being"...he cannot really be intimate with someone else.
I am stunned. It's been 14 years since our divorce and STILL he refuses to acknowledge my existence.
I really believe I was HAD by someone who did NOT love me. He just loved being with someone, that's all.
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