not so good news day
Well what a day it has been. I don't know why I can't just order a peaceful day. I have some exciting, annoying, difficult to swallow news and I am not allowed to talk about it for a couple of days. It is about where my Sydney family is being posted to and it is just so far away it might as well be the other side of the planet. For them it a wonderful move. If I was their age it would be for me.I would just be so pleased.
They are going up north to a small city. It is warm, it is scenic, it is a sought after destination. It is a bright town with a lot of potential and I am sure they will settle right in. But it is so far away. Of course if we could just board a plane no worries but we can't. Since the 1999 strokes Ray is not allowed to fly because he has a narrowed artery in the brain. It is something to do with the pressure. So it is a land journey measured in days. And with his many conditions that is a major undertaking.
I am just trying to adjust to the news. I don't want to rain on their parade. It just feels like losing someone you love, they will be too far away to be a part of our everyday life and we theirs. Naomi will grow up not really knowing which of the Nanny/Poppy, Granma/Pa combinations is on the phone. We will fade in their memories. We will have two or three years without watching the grandchildren grow up. Just thinking about it is tearing me up.
I guess this is how my parents felt when we announced that we were going to live firstly five hours drive away and three years later ten hours drive away when Ray was transferred with his job. I guess for my Mum who was used to me living just up the road it was as devastating as it feels for me now. We, of course, were able to come back here every two months or so to see our old folks. Our kids won't be able to as running a Salvation Army Corps is a real big commitment, we will just see them a couple of times a year. I know, it is not all about me.
Things have been going well for a few weeks and I was just starting to build up some confidence in the future again. But Ray had two "accidents" two days in a row. We just seem to get things sorted out and something else happens. Well I cope, but it does not make for a happy day. And he gets that hang dog look when I get out of sorts and nag him.
Next blog will be bright and breezy and full of the joys of Spring. Promise.
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