I'm back to hating driving-feel like I'm starting
I feel like I'm starting to drive all over again.
I want to hide in my house forever. In the morning rush hour traffic, the whole world is going tooooo fast for me...I've had one person hit me 6mo while I was waiting for a school she was on her cell ohone) and then my son was student driving and had two cars cut in front of him on the mad rush of being out of school for Thanksgiving on a two lane and then they hit each other causing us to have nowhere to go but into them and they cause almost ten thousand in damage to my car and it was gone to be repaired for 2 months.
Today was the first time I've driven my repaired car in the morning rush hour and I'm the only one going the speed limit on this two lane with people whipping around me cause I won't go 60 in a 45mph zone. Scares me to death as I have had a new brakes job and the brakes aren't (its seems) as quick to kick in...everyone says oh you're just used to the loaner car...
I don't know I just wish I had some other way to get my kid to his school(20 min away) but he would rag about the CTA bus which stops across the street from my intersection, cause its late to school often and there is no place good to park to wait for the bus (in winter) without also getting hit...
Someone (dr) told me I could have had traumatic stress from the way my stroke hit(chiro) and now that I've been hit twice in the last year and you add to it having a neuro tell you never have an accident (since you had had a dissection in the 1st place -I could stroke again, had a friend stroke from a whiplash) I'm like sweaty palming it driving again...The wet and snow doesn't help it....I wish I could just stay out of the morning rush...but there is no one else and my son acts like I'm being a pain in the neck, but a kid has no idea where my head is...I'm like please let your mom proceed with what I feel comfortable with and not in over my head...I just wish I could stay in the house forever......
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