Release of some pent up emotions
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Caution - strong emotions posted here - but I have to get it all out somehow.
I'm home from the hospital nut from the way mu husband managed things while I was gone , I 'd like to go back to the subacute unit to get some more rest! He did the best he could but Jesu! there are stacks of things everywhere, waiting for my attention - I'm walking through a minefield of stacks that I don't know which on to start first....
I started with the bill pile or what he said was the bill pile - actually found several appt notifications and my doctor's change of adress notice along with bilss, some of which should have been taken care of already - oy!!!!!!
Th house is a shambles - the first thing I did was clean the bathroom and then clean the kitchen. Today - in between therapy appts that ran long - apparently I've screwed ny knee up royally from a fall on the ice I had in early Feb which aggravated the injury I recieved from the car crash last July. The bedroom will get cleaned tomorrow while my regular cleaning lady comes in to dust, vacuum and do the kitchen and bathroom -
I just want to scream!!!!! It's like everything stoppped while I was gone and they forgot that life still goes on and things need to be done.
I so want to sell this house and go into an apt or a mobile home. He told me when we met that hje wasn't handy, but good golly, you can at least try :Tantrum:
Then there's the issue of nobody else giving a hot that I was incapacitated either (with the exception of Bonnie and you all here at the Strokeboard....Thank you for the card!) No one even called, emailed, came by or sent a card or flowers - nada, nothing - it's like I don't exist or they are too afraid to come around because they don't know what to say or do - or afraid of what they will see or hear from me.
This is what really ticks me off - I'll say this and then let it go - my ex-friend that I've written about in my blog before - she helped organize my wedding and is related to ne by marriage and actually startid calling me her sister because things were going so well between us before the stroke. Now afteer the stroke I've been totally dropped - even the sympathy card and the Christmas card I sent her to try to extend a part of a bridge were returned to me.
Anyway, further distance occurred last week while I was in the subacute unit of the hosptal where she works - barely 100 ft from her nursing station........did she come to see me, ask about how I was? Nope - I'm sorry but that is pretty much unforgiveable in my book. I'm done - I just can't deal with her stupidness anymore - I really don't know what I did to tick her off but I no longer care, I'll return her favor of not intruding in her life anymore and really start the search for new friends who unerstand and have a sense of humor abou life instead of constantly being a downer....
Giving up on my husband's family as well - they live in the same town and have a car sellling business that nrings them daily to places that are withinh a five minute ride of wher I was in the hospital. Again no calls/visit/nothing - thry didn't even have the decency tio spport my husband (their family member) with meals/house stuff/helping out with my daighter.....I'm tired of trying to fit in .....I'm just me and apparenly that isn't good enough , so I'm gonna re-evaluate and sticj with those in my acquaintance who are escited about life and want to do things - go places and just chat a little.
More later, hubby is home from the grocery
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