Okay - I guess strokes do run in my family....
Just found out from my brother Heath that our mother has had two major strokes and that her pancreas has shut down so she is now a Type I diabetic. ( I have not spoken to her in four years -long story short - she didn't like the life choices I was making and issued an ultimatum - stay around where she was or go on and move with my job transfer to FL and take the man I was dating at the time with me) I don't respond well to ultimatums , what child does? So I left and she cut me out of her life. For some reason she started a friendship with my ex-husband(I think it's just because she knew she could boondoggle him into letting her see my daughter when she was visiting him) And she just likes to play with people - I'm still workin through all the crap she put me through as a defenseless kid.
Not that I would wish a stroke on her, but it does seem rather apropos - is that bad to feel that way? She's hurt so many people, is this the part where what comes around , goes around?
I feel extremely detached about this - is this normal? I know she's still my mother but she's never been the "motherly" type. Feel dazed.......
She has never really taken care of herself smoked since I could remember, two packs a day- she's had two heart attacks and over a dozen catheritizations, still kept smoking until the pancreas failed apparently.
Advice? Opinions? Thoughts?
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