Stress
Stress,
Stress, stress, go away - don't come another day. Stress is my worst enemy, the one I cannot seem to conquer, other people say 'just don't worry about it', yet I cannot seem to overcome my enemy, no matter what I do.
The past couple of months have been incredibly stressful - some stresses I could do something about, yet the big stressor I could only wait and see, as I had been doing for what seemed months already. The big stressor was resolved on Tuesday - what an incredible relief, yet I have to keep reminding myself it is over and the outcome was good.
Today, Thursday, my muscles across my shoulders and down my arms are still protesting, less than yesterday, but the muscles are still vibrating from being wound so tight for so long. Tuesday afternoon and all day yesterday my muscles felt like they were inflamed and angry.
The pain over the last two months was harsh, I would wake up fine and within half an hour the pain in my shoulders and down my arms was back. The only relief was sleep, yet going to bed caused a different pain as the muscles relaxed and it felt like the blood was getting through finally, just as sleep took over. Thankfully sleep seldom fails me.
People tell me just don't worry, think of something else, do something to take your mind off it, shut it out. Don't you think I would if I could? Do you think I like to be this way? Some people are born worriers, I am convinced of this. I have worried all of my life, I don't know how to not worry, I try everything to unwind, relax, not to worry and I fail.
I hope I learn how not to worry soon.
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