my issues
my name is kerry and i am codependent
i think
this is something i am learning about and do not fully understand
i was first told that i was codependent by my husband about 4 years ago
he was in rehab recovering from a drug dependency
one of the first things he told me when he came home was about my codependency issues
i of course figured he was just looking for someone to blame for his addictions
so i got all defensive and went on line and started to read up on codependency
what i read hit to close to home and not wanting to admit that i had anythng wrong with me
i shoved the codependency issue way in the back of my mind and continued on with my life
it has always nagged at me though
and as of late especially with my mom and husband losing his job and not being able to effectively communicate to family that I am sinking and need help
my codependency issues seem to have reared their ugly little heads
ahha
but this time i have decided to take control
i want to be happy
granted things in my life are far from perfect but for me to always be feeling like i am barely keeping it together
tears always on the rim of my eyes
the breakdown just around the next corner
the lid i have put on my feelings starting to pop up
i have sought help
i have an appointment with a therapist next week
i am going to make the time to fix me and learn to deal better with my feelings and problems
maybe this will help maybe not
it can't hurt i guess
at least maybe I will get some good drugs out of it
haha just kidding
sorta
:laughbounce:
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