Some things are best left unknown for me
I've blogged before about the information gathering for Bill's zyprexa claim. Among the many health facilities' information I had to forward was the information from the hospital he went to after his 10/2004 stroke. The ER notes totaled 22 pages and the folks at the Medical Records department seemed genuinely surprised that ER notes were so extensive.
Day before yesterday I happened to read these notes more closely than I had before. I know that what is past is past. Nothing that happened or didn't happen that night could change a thing about today. I have to remember that. The information I read in those notes nearly made me sick to my stomach.
To recap the situation the blame for Bill's treatment (or lack of it) was placed on me. According to the notes Bill became "agitated" after the "lp wife" (I don't know what lp means - lay person?) repeatedly left his room to inquire about what was going on. The times don't lie though - The notes show that Bill layed in that er room for two hours without any notes regarding his progress. I know in my heart of hearts what transpired. Included in the notes was a letter from the last attending physician advising him of his condition - unsigned by either Bill or any nurse. The notes also indicated they spoke with him the next morning, however, Bill wasn't able to talk and they spoke with me. Completely ignored was the fact that with strokes sometimes comes agitation. There was no notation regarding the fact that I went to the nurse's station because Bill asked me to. The only notation was that I went to the station requesting pain medication but when they went into the room he was sleeping "in fact snoring". I did go to the nurses station. However, the key piece of information missing was that I explained why I was there. Bill asked me to go - then when the nurse came into the room he was not agitated. It was that way all night. One time I went out to the nurses station, told them Bill wanted pain medication and when the nurse came in I explained - in front of Bill for a REASON - that he seemed much more comfortable and the notes reflected that I had changed my story.
I have been very upset by the notes. There are so many issues with them. But I can't really do anything about them because what happened, happened. The unfortunate thing, in my opinion it was almost as if the hospital decided they may have a problem so they needed to shade me as the cause of their actions or inactions - actually their incompetence. As has been said, a bleed is a bleed is a bleed and the outcome probably would not have changed even if he'd been admitted that night.
One other thing that is interesting is that the CT scan on the notes indicated "brain bleed" however the diagnosis was shown as viral meningitis......hmmmm
Oh well, it's time to get past this. My resentments won't change the current situation.
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