Feeling Crappy
I just can't seem to get it together. Today has been the worst in a long time. I don't know that there is any weather coming; actually, it is suppose to rain in the next couple of days and Sunday we have a chance of snow flurries.
Recently, I have been having pain shooting up the back left side of my head, just like before my stroke. My whole left neck area was extremely inflamed this morning, it was so painful.
It kind of scared me. In the hospital, the drs. told my family that I have a 1% chance of having another stroke, along w/ the rest of the general population. But now w/ this inflammatory pain, I am wondering if they took into consideration my vein condition, where my veins keep growing and branching out. Does reason say that now I am older, the veins are not as elastic and pliable? That they would be thinner and more brittle?
What would this portend for the kids? They want me to get well and get out and start living my life on my own. What if this doesn't happen?
I have a plan to eventually start work and hopefully support myself in about a year's time. I haven't done anything to accomplish any of these goals. What is wrong w/ me? I just don't want to do anything any more. I need an "uumph," a jolt, something to get me re-started. Hopefully, this blog will shame me into action again. Take Care. LK
PS: I hope I can write "crappy" w/out getting into trouble.
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