Not sure why I started this?
I am not exactly sure why I started this. Going to give it a try to see if it helps me with thoughts, feelings and more connection with other members.
Brief about me: I am 37 and had a stroke when I was 33. My children were 10, 7, 4 at the time of my stroke. I was and am currently married. We have been married for 15 years and dated 5 years before marriage. We have had our marriage struggles but dealing with the stroke seems to have ended our relationship. I have changed so much! I am on total disability. I try to volunteer when feeling well.
My stroke was hemorrhagic on the right side. I also needed brain surgery to repair the cavernous malformation that caused the stroke. I have slight deficits in my left side. The most resulting difficulties I have are: lack of attention span, extremely tired and terrible headaches.
I am currently waiting to be 'accepted' into the pain clinic. It is like an application to join an exclusive club or something. I sent in my paperwork the end of December. I called last week and they are waiting on some test results and some records from doctors( I see way too many different ones!). I keep praying to get in and start working on a treatment plan to deal with this headache pain!
I started physical therapy 2 weeks ago on my neck. This helped some about a year ago. We are doing this to help ease pain until I am 'accepted' into the pain clinic.
I am feeling an increase in my depression lately. The headache pain is just wearing me down. When/How/What will help? I have been taking test hoping to find a cause for my headaches to treat them. I have been trying different pain meds with some help. I have tried yoga, gentle stretching to see if it will help.
I am having such huge problems sleeping! This makes it difficult to care for my kids. I am crabby and easily irritated. I snap at the kids. Then I feel guilty! I take long naps and sometimes miss al evening with them! I feel like such a bad mom.
My psychiatrist prescribed me Ambien for sleep help. This makes me sleep too long and I have a very hard time getting up to get the breakfast and on the bus to school. I called him today and he called in an order for Sonata to see if that might work better. Please pray it does!
Well enough for tonight. I will add another entry soon! Beth
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