bittersweet day
today is a sad day for me but a happy one for my dad. he has decided to move from our family farm, 7miles out in the country into an independent living facility in town, where alot of his farming buddies are at and other lifelong friends. he was born and lived most of his life there. he is 82 and in good health. he has been alone since my mom died 3years ago. this is a good thing for him, i know that and am happy for him. all of us kids agree this is best for him. he didn't want to be in that house when mom's death anniversary comes up on 4-10. mother's presence is all over that house if you know what i mean. its just that i am sad at the same time. because that was mom n dads, and many generations of family's home, for all of us to come together as family on holidays or a visit. it just won't be the same anymore. i tear up just writing this. my son is driving up there tomorrow to pick up some pieces of furniture for me that dad wanted me to go ahead and get now. marc will just bring them out to me when he moves back to phx this month. my sister is going up to the farm next weekend to pick up daddy for a 4wk visit with them in tx and she will get alot of the stuff she wanted. mom had beautiful antique dishes from our families, cups, saucers and beautiful red glass stuff. the other stuff will go into storage i guess until my brother can get the rest of the stuff out to me. i am angry because i cannot be there to help because of this stupid stroke. i talked to daddy today and he is resting in his recliner watching his satelite tv, so he is happy and comfy. i cant ask for more. so many changes have happened since my stroke and i wasn't prepared for any of them. i want my dad to be happy for the time he has left and if this is it so be it. i am just sad that things are changing away from my comfort zone.
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