one of those times!
i guess i am a whiner - seem to be having some tough physical and emotional times these days. being back in my old home area is great --and unexpectedly hard. i worked for years in the plymouth area (my main office) and now live only about a mile from one of my branch offices - actually all five sites that were my responsibility are within a 15 mile area. it seems everywhere i go i am reminded of who and what i was before my stroke. i loved my work and felt i made a small difference in the lives of the families we worked with --and my staff. today i got an email from old staff telling me the woman who took my place is leaving and would i consider asking the agency about returning... nothing i would like better except having escaped the stroke demon. i know i am lucky to be here and i am begining to think acceptance is a daily task. my stroke took the form of a bleed affecting the frontal lobe and my emotions are like going through a hallmark store. every day....i cry so easily and get get confused at the drop of a hat......i have a hard time living with me and i know it is tough on my husband.......who was grumpy before my stroke and now is sad and grumpy......can i blame him. the move has been good with the kids and grandson but daily life has not changed. i have times when i am so anxious and fearful ---i try to breathe and be aware but i feel so much is out of my control. i want to contribute and feel i have a purpose ...i realize i am not alone in this desire....well, seems i lost my sense of humor for a moment but then i was told that blogging helps with getting through the tough spots.....guess this is a bit of a tough spot....sorry
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