confirmed apt today
Went to see Ann today (my shrink) lol she always laughs at that. Its confirmed that may 12-16 I'll be in Houston in rehab to see it they can help me and give me some tools to work with when i get back home. Im looking forward to this. Im sure they have all kinds of info they can give me so i can use them at home. And ways to help slow down the vasular demenchia Ann really help me make it this far. Here goes the truth part I would have killed myself back in Feb it I hadn't met her. I was at the end, out of work for a year almost out of money. All my savings gone everything I worked for all my life. I was so tired and in such a dark place.
But... she took the time to explaine to me there are resorces to use. She gave me the info and set me up with tx rehab (state run). With out them I wouldn't have known how bad my stroke was. Sure I knew there was something wrong but not to this extent. Truth time (I AM DISABLED)
Some physically mostly my brain has some severe damage.
The nerologist gave me the results from all his test when I left his office.
Ann and I went over them page by page.....yes it's all true BRAIN IS DAMAGED my BRAIN
Today with Ann I found a peace my body seemed to relax and the anger seemed to melt away. I could actually feel it. So its time to start a new chaper in my life. Meet new people and have new experences. Im sure there will be bad days and i'll fall back a little but I will try to move forward everyday.
April 30. 2008 the first aniversery of my beloved grandmothers death. I miss her soooo.. No one could have loved her more that I did. She lived with me for the last 10 years. She was there when I took my first breath and I for her when she took her last. I can remember every moment of her last days. She died at home in here room with her bird petee and me by her side. How I miss her. I made sure she knew how much I loved her and I knew how much she loved me. I guess that should bring me some peace. I thanked God today for not letting her see me like this. It would have broke her heart. So I'm content knowing she is with him and I will see her again. When it's my time.
And not before!!!!!!!!!!!!
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