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Hi, This is my first shot at blogging. First let me say that I love reading the Blogs. Now if I can only rise to the occasion. We all need some help from our friends. The last few days I am been so very down hearted . Its a long story but I had long before my stoke joined a very divisive forum regading a situation close to my heart. This forum allows pretty much every thing. My life was so miserable becase of one the contributor members who does not agree with my position. Publically he would say horrible awful things about me because of my disagreement with his belief and position regarding the topic of the forum. Then I had the stroke and was gone a while when I got back he would ridicule me and say I never had a stoke I was trying to gain sympathy. I had come face to face with an internet stalker who lived to call me a liar and that I was a faker and had muncnhausen. I quit the forum totally withdrew so as to keep my saninty Logical thing. Well I heard through the grapevine he had found God and was a different person. Not so. He is worse than ever and I cannot believe I was ever so nice as to put myself in this position for all that ugliness to start over. There is nothing in the world more difficult than waking up to try to survive a near fatal stroke To have to do it with that tvpe ugliness is not possible. IE Someone telling you its all in your heard. Your faking etc Well I hate to admit it because I see this as somehow my failure. I know stay away dont go back It is so hard not to defend yourself when you are being slandered and lied about and falsely accused . What to do I cannot allow that level of depression to swallow me whole once again. What is more important defending my reputation or choosing to walk away to save myself from that toxic negativity.? I am feeling Alone and discouraged Not undertanding why evil like that is allowed in the world. Karen
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