PERMANENT BRAIN DAMAGE
PERMANENT BRAIN DAMAGE
those words have been branded in my mind since my neurologist visit this morning. i was asking him about my memory problems. he said "hon, you have to accept that you have PERMANENT BRAIN DAMAGE i said"YOU TOLD ME MY BRAIN COULD RECIRCUIT ITSELF IN TIME"!!!!!! he says, " i think it has to a great degree. but with PERMANENT BRAIN DAMAGE, there are no guarantees. in my 30 years exerience if anything comes back, it's usually within two years".
so i said" so i have 8 months till i know?". he said that the times vary from patient to patient. i said "DR FEELGOOD( not his real name) YOU NEVER TOLd ME I HAD PERMANENT BRAIN DAMAGE, why did you wait till now to tell me that"! he said he thought i had understoood that the first time he read my eeg, and showed me the scan with this centimeter long black spot on it.
maybe i did know, but didn't want to think about it. i think now that i did know, but to hear him SAY it, started up the tear factory. i thought i had accepted my demise, apparently not, i'm still crying and can't stop. i want my whole brain back.
kim
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