**hi** My name is Leina, Its been 3 years & i have finally found a place that people will understand me.......its not easy living as a young stroke survivor, as most people dont understand that a young person, can have a stroke.

As a young 34yr old lady, at times i feel old in my body & slow in my mind & that my life has past me by........But the stubborn me keeps battling on, day by day & i know in my mind & feel in my body that i can gain a little more, each day of what i lost when having my stroke.

My husband & two children help me keep focused on life & motivate me to try harder, but i do have my, i just want to give up days!!! Dont we all??

As much as im liking this site, im finding it very confusing :uhm: , although i must say, i am very new to the social network internet world & have only just mastered facbook, lol, so i feel a little all over the place, as i have never Blogged before & am not sure what to write????? :Typing:

Its been a long road with the complete lose of use on my left side, i learned to walk again & still trip if i dont concentrate, i cant run & wish to again.

I was a very active fit person & loved walking every where, for hours & hours.

My left leg is slow, some days & my is ankle weak, i have very bad circulation & get a numb foot alot of the time.

My balance is getting better but is not good, my eye sight is damaged but not to bad, i have to wear sun glasses all the time.

My left arm is a real pain & my hand, well it only does what it wants to & even then, its still lazy, my fine motor skills are gone & are slow to recover, iv just started hanging my washing out on the line but if its windy, well i may as well just throw it all on the ground & leave it, lol, but i shouldnt complain........i have been back driving for a year & drive a manual car & have no problems with changing gears,i get the jittery leg thingy at times though.

I still get very tired & tell myself all the time that i need to get lots of good sleep :Neeeedsleeep: , i slept for most of the first year after my stroke, I needed to rest & heal my brain!!!

I suffer from depression & when i couldnt cope any more a year ago i went to my Dr for help.

I had hit rock bottom & was sad & angry :Rage: with life, my smile was gone, i thought i could handle anything!!!

I WAS WRONG......i lost control completely. :Explode:

My Dr was a great help & put me in touch with a phycolagist & a phyciatrist (cant spell them words) they helped & i am still seeing them both when needed, having a stroke not only challenges your body it changes you mentally too............but in the end it can change you in a good way, iv learnt that life will allways throw you more hurdles once you think you have finally mastered all.

Here i am now feeling there is hope with a big smile but also remembering to take things slow, one day at a time & not get lost in a world, of thinking every thing must be perfect.

Well i think i have written enough for now, i still have so much more of my story to tell & its a long way back to the beginning.

I hope i havent bored :Rant-On: anyone with a little of my story, it is a short long one!!!

I do feel better :happydance: after writing this blog, please feel free to comment & or message me, im still trying to figure the live chat, thingy, set up????

I think i may have said before, i am eager to communicate with others. :chat: