i guess no one really reads this anymore
well i just decided to type some stuff in here for my own memories since i don't really get many comments anymore. I appreciate those of you who still comment hough. Well I was discharged from PT shortly after my last entry because my medicaid ran out. I was kind of sad and disappointed. I felt like I had made no progress. Fortunately, I took a 6 minute walk around the hospital and just seeing the stroke survivors and spinal cord injury patients laying in bed and rolling around in wheelchairs, reminded me that that used to be me a couple of years ago. Its good to know I got better since my stroke. I just wish it didnt feel like I have come to a halt in recovery. I got a new leg brace but it is so big and bulky that I dont even wear it much. I also got another hand splint. Lastnight was the first night I slept all through the night without it falling off my hand. The only bad thing is it took me about an hour to get it on and my fingers are still jammed up under the velcro straps and not straightend out. I find myself focusing on my hand more in the summer time because I have more free time from school and I notice my hand more. I try moving my fingers and straightening my wrist but it just will not do it. In my mind it feels so easy. I know I have faith. I concentrate as hard as I can but nothing happens. That is the recipe for disappointment . Luckily I started my internship this week so I dont have to deal with the leg, foot, and thigh spasms from laying in bed being lazy all day. On the bad side, now I have to deal with cramps and spasms in my shoulder frpm sitting at my office desk for 8 hours a day. Speaking of school, I did well on my finals all of course. I am ready to graduate in December but very much afraid of being out there "in the real world." I love my internship. I work at the law enforcement office for the largest military base in the country (fort bragg of course). It is very exciting and rewarding. Times like this I am glad I have a disability. I am so thankful for the program for college students with disabilities! I was thinking about writing a poem about how thankful I am and how much I love my imperfections but I havent had time to sit down and think about it. When I finish it I will share. Well I have to get up at 5am for work so I guess this is all
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