Just Tryin'
This has been an eventful week. I ventured out into the world to go to Outpatient Therapy. What an experience! My first ride in The Ride ,which is a kind of limo service for us "handicapped" people who can't get around on their own. Scary for me to do first-time things...I'm such a control freak and to have to rely on anyone other than me just gives me the "willies". Anyway, I ended up with a really good driver who gave a lot of good tips on using the Ride so I felt much more comfortable. Rehab was quite another matter. I was not advised that I was to do a co-pay and was just not "with-it" that I forgot I had my medical credit card when they could not accept the only money I had with which to pay the fee.
Sometimes I just don't know where my head is. My brain must have been napping! Anyway, I had my evaluation and surprised myself by walking the length of the gym and back with my walker! So, needless to say, I was pumped up with that fact. I know it's going to get easier - I just have to give myself a break and let it happen. I am writing a "newsletter" to friends I just want to keep track of and it's weekly. Today I did my 2nd letter and in it I mentioned my terrific support staff and how I've depended on them. It also occured to me that all this must have needed to happen to me because I am such a controlling person. I need to remember the Serenity Prayer more often and try to change only the things I can, instead of knocking my head against the wall about the stuff in my life that really doesn't matter. And I know I'm in the right forum when I say that sometimes it takes getting ill in this way to realize the good stuff. Enough of making myself cry.....I am a survivor and I will get through this fork in the road of my life. Hope we all have a great day.... Annie
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