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Yvonne I have really enjoyed spending time with my husband. He and I even get along better by ourselves. So far so good...I've made several changes to the house, had quiet evenings, less to cook and clean, Hailey is really enjoying her new apt. and we are being more cordial to each other. All in all I'd say this is positive. 

Thank you both. I am so proud of her and I bet she remembers many of the things I have told her over the years about the big world. She came over to visit tonight and we didn't argue once! 

You are a brave soul and I am so glad that  you have been seeing positive results.

On 3/12/2017 at 4:29 PM, nancyl said:

And by far it has been way more effective than any med.

I myself have had severe anxiety and panic disorder with some depression but it sounds like depression really bit hard for you. Depression and meds are quirky sometimes they just don't work so well...I am glad you have found and alternative and were brave enough to push on. Please keep us informed of your progress!

? You are on your right path now Asha! What a realization!

You know Sue I get sorta blue every autumn...not necessarily for the same resons but my Doctor calls it SAD (Seasonal Affective Depression) or something like that. For me those short days of light are tough. I try and get out in the sun or open my curtains during the day and I feel somewhat better. It slowly wears away and then spring brings me out of it. I bet though having to be alone a lot is just a bit of a downer...I can only imagine. I'm always happy to see you write and be so supportive on this site. That helps others tremendously and I am sure appreciated so much. Hobbies just aren't the same in the cooler and cold months. I love to get outside and enjoy planting flowers, trimming the shrubs, picking up sticks and fallen limbs even...being out in the sun just feels so good. Know I am thinking about you and hope that you find your autumn and winter pass over as smooth as possible. ?

Thank you guys. It's been a while since I've enjoyed writing poetry so it feels good that I am!

I truly understand your fears and Kelli I am so glad everything is ok!

Kelli I have no doubts that you will rise to the occasion. It makes you feel vulnerable to have the feelings you have but I most definitely have been there. I hope that your surgery goes smoothly and that your recovery is as easy on you as possible. Believe. You are beautiful. Beauty is not just skin deep.

Sue I think you are so right. To me all this disagreement is just that it's time she open her wings.

Thank you so much and since I have talked with so many of you I don't feel alone. That was the one feeling that I think changed for the positive for sure when I became a member to this site.

Thank you Heather. Writing poetry is something I have enjoyed for a long time but have only recently been able to pick it up again. Writing from a pain point of view helps me to be so expressive and it really does help to release it.

Thank you David. Thank you for seeing into the jumble mess of words and allowing me to get those scary moments out. It's good for me.

Sorry if it's kinda dark and lonely poem but I have felt this way at moments after. This is a way for me to get it out. I used to write poetry all the time. Trust me I am a big amateur so I have no Idea if I follow "the right way" lol.

That is scary Kelli. I've not had tacchycardia before but I have talked to people who have and I knew I never wanted to experience this. Is this caused from your stroke?

Heather I enjoyed these pictures so much. So many happy, smiling, and determined faces. I am not near the ocean but this looks like an adventure and so worth the effort and tiredness that might follow. I am glad you got to do this and thank you for sharing!

Thanks Heather I will take that advice. I've been doing things different just trying a new system 

. My Neuropsychologist says I need to just do 1 thing at a time. It's hard when you have a whole house that needs attention so I started making a smaller list for everyday and I check it as done even if I only did it once like laundry. So if I do 2 or 3 then great but just checking off that I have accomplished something helps me keep motivated I think. I have also been doing things in increments. I'll do a list item and then take a break and relax. Then I just keep repeating that. It's helping!

By the way this was Friday. I don't know what day I missed lol.

Heather I don't brave them too often because it's hard to get down and even harder to get up. I love a good bubble bath though I hope one day you do too. It was a real milestone for me.

Oh that sounds so wonderful Heather! I love to see another's joy. Thank you for creating your own gratitude list.

Way to go Asha! Fred you are so positive an inspiration to me.

I am thankful you can do that Fred. Thank you for reading!

Good idea Asha.

Me too David!!! There is no telling what things would be like if I couldn't.

It's official, I will be without insurance...and I feel as though my relationship is about to end. It's all I can say.

I think you are right Asha. We are very practical gift buyers usually but my husband believes in giving a romantic gift 1st. (the necklace) I have learned for my family its not the presents at all many times we'll put any money set aside for Christmas together and get something we have all been wanting and needing it's just as special!