scrappier

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  1. scrappier
    Well, three out of the four of us ran to dinner last night and when I went out to step in the car, I was amazed. My face did not feel like it was going to freeze and drop off. The air felt cold and refreshing for once not fridgid. This is the kind of winter I can handle. Even still if only for a few minutes at a time, but it is one that gives me hope and the optimism that I can take a quick 5 or 10 minute walk, like my mother is always harping at me to do. The women is 77 and she walks twice a day, no matter the weather. My daughter likes to brag that her grandma is a dynamowho loves walking, gambling, reading good books, bakes to much for all of our own good and can be found at her condo assoc. pool all summer in spite of having skin cancer (the low risk) kind taken off her nose. She is a wonder and some healthy competition for me to come back to that kind of brave optimistic broad that just soldiers on day after day being glad for what life's given her.
     
    On the other hand there's my "not really for real" (as she so eloquently referred to herself the very first time I met her (!) because she is technically my step mother in law. She (in the 20 years I've witnessed) has never happy unless she is aquiring something or in the midst of accomplishing her latest goal of aquiring something...Be it a different house, a new kitchen (she just got a new 5 years ago and its already not good and is currently being redone) or whatever business move to make her future more secure....and then the happiness is only temporary till she off fretting again on how she will get whatever the next urgent thing is she needs. I've truly never witnessed such a striver. With that kind of searching mentality, looking inside at herself, might save her from her aquiremania....but then again that might be what she's trying not to do. Her fear of what she may find..stopping her, its truly a shame, I NEVER want my kids to ever think they are the sum total of what they have in material things.
     
    Coming from a family where I was raised more to appreciate what I do have (material and education, and what I could do with it) instead of focusing on what I haven't gotten "yet".
     
    I thought in this "season of dreary" weather to think about what everyone is truly glad to be or to have in their life.
     
    Even just the thought of being here to grumble about the weather is something, we'll be glad to say we persevered thru another winter, a bit ago we (many of us) were struggling with walking and talking moreso than now hopefully...better than not being here because every day, every hour, every minute everyone is given the same chance to make it a better minute or hour or day than before..and since there's no grass to plea to mow or weeds to pull, I thought we've got the time.....
     
    Its really up to you how you choose to think towards this life of yours and how you wish to handle it. Sure day to day life gets tiring and I wonder if it's just me and is it just our life or anyone's seems as tiring and repetitive in esp. this winter weather? Summer seems to zip by (except for those stifling humid days are to me worse than winter!) but I can't help but stop and wonder is it more the way we face any certain thing for that matter, that make us think its either hard or easy???
     
    We all have situations that we can't always partly control, but how we look at what we do with the moments is based more on attitude than anything. If we look at something as a bore it ends up being a bore just like if we look forward to something, it usually igoes too fast.. I think it was interesting to read that years from now we regret more what we choose not to do or go after than what we did. If we don't try how will we ever know? But if we do nothing then we know what the outcome will be..nothing
     
    It's not to me the trip or the new car that matter but more the memories and chances we tooke to do the things that we all invariably say we'd "like" to do someday...well folk's that some day is here and now.
     
    Take a timer and set it to a minute and wait till the bell goes off...That's one more minute you'll never get back, so why not start right now, reaching for that inner goal that you've always said you'd like to do.
     
    No one else has your dream, it's your's only to go after. What are you waiting for? If you truly want it bad enough, you'll find a way.. no one is going to go get it for you.push whatever fear aside it only has as much power as you give it, whatever skill or speciality people consider you to have, then they'll think of you as a "pro" and that is another example of just another amateur who refused to quit... :Clap-Hands:
     
    So the time is now! It can be being the best parent, grandparent, friend, knitter, baker, woodworker whatever....what kind of memories do we want to leave behind? Think of that as your legacy...what you taught your loved ones..My mom or dad/grandma or grandpa aunt or uncle, sister or brother could really....(fill in)...........build a memory that you want of you...
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    I've got a friend who's really having a tough go of it. Her father is ill and undergoing a rather rough treatment. The hospital that is doing his treatments is like 2 hours from his house. A month ago, he came up with the brillant idea of inviting himself to bunk at my friends house for a few days after being at the hospital since her house is exactly halfway between the hospital and his residence.
     
    Now she is really feeling like the scum on the bottom of your shoe because she's tried to do this for a few weekends and its just making the problems that are already in the house worse. She can feel the tension building. That her son and husband resent her father(who treated them badly in the past) invading their privacy and acting entitled in the process. Besides the total lack of privacy, her father not doing his best at being an unintrusive or (God-forbid)gracious guest, her family is already trying to find their equilibrium again, after a family crisis with the oldest teen and she is trying to get a marriage that had moments of being on shaky ground to more solid footing.
     
    My friend has very bad memories of the way she and her two brothers were basically left to fend for themselves after their father won custody of them. It was basically a revenge move by their father against the mother for daring to leave them in the first place. Basically both parents were pretty messed up and had no business bring kids into the world when they were doing too well to begin with. My friend feels in the middle because her brothers have such bad memories of their youth that even tho their father is in a bad way with several medical conditions they refuse to talk to him for the way they grew up was so painful. Being the only daughter my friend wants to help her dad ( a narcisist) but not to the detriment of her own family. Even mentioning a third phone line for him wuld be nice. My friend is fairly well off (due to her husband's work ethic) and picked her as the obvious choice sine he burned so many bridges in the past..
     
    I admire her for putting her family first but I'm also trying to help her resolve her feelings of wanting to help this man who had treated them all so badly when young. He basically was only worried about himself then and signs of being the same way shine thru when he's not watching his behavior...
     
    So it really is a lesson when I tell and show my kids the old addage of treat others the way you want to be treated....In your time of true need, the people you treated well will be there for you and the ones that you didn't treat well, may find this hard to do. :2cents:
  3. scrappier
    I've been cold all day and I'm a sweater gal!
     
    But I'm even wishing for spring but I'd rather be stuck in the now if it weren't sooo cold, that yelling at kid's over who mowed the lawn last is not a blast and then the presence of grass would mean there are invariably weeds in the yard calling my name! But then there's that stifling humidty so no wonder I think the cold crisp air is refreshing.....till I get cold, which is maybe half a minute. How about you? Has ANYONE gotten their personal thermostats working again??
     
    I can't imagine not loving hot chocolate or tea and a great long simmered beaf stew with a good red wine... JGive us winter just not the tundra...I can love this as long as I don't have to drive in blizzards!
     
    Has any of the gals seen a really cute sweater out early in the stores in July or August and bought it? If I really love it I'll try it on and maybe buy it. I anticipate fall and then snowflakes not -30's!!!! I feel like the cold is just creeping in everywhere and I'm sick of wiping down the insides of the windows for the water that the ice produces after the shades are up in the morning. Like I said I'm a primo sweater lover, but 2 at one time, now I'm starting to feel like a sausage.....
     
    I dread getting out of the nice warm bed into the cold air, but since my husband is not a coffee drinker I'd be waiting till eternity if I thought he'd bring it to me. The only thing that tempts me out (besides the thought of a headache if I stayed longer) is that I have one of the automatic timer coffee pots that my dear ole mom got me when I had to face toddlers...I'm sure she figured I needed all the caffeine I could plug into me. Now who besides me sees coffee as the elixir to the short term spurt of energy? I try to make the most of morning cause I still want to crash at 1 or 2...
     
    I'm also the resident bad, bad mom on the block. I would gladly suspend school after snow/cold has shown it's wintery face! School off for everyone if you leave me to my laundry, cooking and internet unless I get drawn into a good card game or taste comparison of something with chocolate..School should be off till April, sounds about right to me...Winter is for books, cooking, watching pretty sunrises, loving your comfy clothes , eating and drinking winter treats.
     
    To me that makes winter the coolest only when it's not doing it's best to imitate antartica....Is there anyone brave enough to partake in any winter time activities? I'd be the spectator looking out the window!
     
    Stay Warm!
     
    :bop:
  4. scrappier
    FEEL SORRY FOR US, THEY SAY -28 BELOW HERE IN CHI-TOWN.....UGH!!!!!
     
    And then I get to hear how the relatives in Phoenix are freezing?...it's in the 50's, cry me a river, kiss my butt!....
     
    I once went to a garding seminar that dealt with our weather extremes and gardening and they said we have the same winter weather as the Siberia!!! Huh?
     
    :cheer: :dribble: :cheer: :dribble: Thank God for the SUPERBOWL! It will get all of Chicago's mind off of freezing our tushies for at least a few hours.
     
    Now the weathermen say it will last for the next 8 days!!! ick!
     
    I will have kids climbing walls a bit. Especially so since I have one in particular that had already been at home for 5 days last week SICK BIG TIME, so he's shockingly sick of video games. We've been playing alot of poker lately...Seems like every time I have a pairs of Aces, some kid has a royal flush.
     
    And I won't even address the question of my husband's sanity to have gone snomoin in upper MI this weekend....should have questioned it, 20 years ago when he wanted to move out of the southwest, cause he missed the seasons of the Mid-west? huh we could have drove to Flagstaff for the day for fall or winter weather...
     
    I have countrystyle pork cuts cooking in my crock pot for game time, slathered with barbeque rub from Weber Grill for pulled pork sandwiches and slaw! Also have a Lou Malanti pizza in my freezer for the kiddo's. How Chicago is that!
     
    I may have to see how hot chocolate goes with those or tea?
     
    The news has been spouting all week how we can tailgate in Soldier's Field and as of this am, not hearing of anyone hitting that parking lot...it's outside---- reason enough---- and then there's that wind off Lake Michigan.
     
    Considering we have those shirtless crazy fans at Soldiers Field in the winter, I wonder if some obsessives s will end up out there?
     
    I had had my stroke by Thanksgiving and made it into RIC in Chicago by December and spent some of my time watching Lake Michigan freeze over while there....Not something I want to spend another second thinking of....I need to conjuer up thoughts of how hot and sweaty it was waiting outside of Shedd last July.... GIVE ME WARMTH...... ohhhhh baby get here spring ASAP!
     
    SEND US SOME WARMTH...GO BEARS!!!! :cheer:
  5. scrappier
    I feel like I'm starting to drive all over again.
     
    I want to hide in my house forever. In the morning rush hour traffic, the whole world is going tooooo fast for me...I've had one person hit me 6mo while I was waiting for a school she was on her cell ohone) and then my son was student driving and had two cars cut in front of him on the mad rush of being out of school for Thanksgiving on a two lane and then they hit each other causing us to have nowhere to go but into them and they cause almost ten thousand in damage to my car and it was gone to be repaired for 2 months.
     
    Today was the first time I've driven my repaired car in the morning rush hour and I'm the only one going the speed limit on this two lane with people whipping around me cause I won't go 60 in a 45mph zone. Scares me to death as I have had a new brakes job and the brakes aren't (its seems) as quick to kick in...everyone says oh you're just used to the loaner car...
     
    I don't know I just wish I had some other way to get my kid to his school(20 min away) but he would rag about the CTA bus which stops across the street from my intersection, cause its late to school often and there is no place good to park to wait for the bus (in winter) without also getting hit...
     
    Someone (dr) told me I could have had traumatic stress from the way my stroke hit(chiro) and now that I've been hit twice in the last year and you add to it having a neuro tell you never have an accident (since you had had a dissection in the 1st place -I could stroke again, had a friend stroke from a whiplash) I'm like sweaty palming it driving again...The wet and snow doesn't help it....I wish I could just stay out of the morning rush...but there is no one else and my son acts like I'm being a pain in the neck, but a kid has no idea where my head is...I'm like please let your mom proceed with what I feel comfortable with and not in over my head...I just wish I could stay in the house forever......
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    I'm hosting family from Phoenix (valley of the sun a'hmmmm-wimps) and they swear they have never felt it hotter than yesterday in Chicago. We took the kids to Shedd Aquar. yesterday and decided to walk back up to Mich Ave. along the lake shore. We made it half way and flagged a taxi. It was 100 on the temperature thing in my car but the heat index was 107. The thing that was the kicker was the taxi had all his windows rolled up but the a/c only in the front of the taxi (which my son and nephew enjoyed) while we finally said the heck with it and lower windows in the back as the girls and toddler nephew were close to getting heat stroke. I told her (SIL)"WE DO NOT DO THIS WHEN ITS LIKE THIS, WE MUST MISS AND LOVE YOU ALOT, 'CAUSE YOU'RE THE ONLY PERSON WE'D PLAY TOURISM DIRECTOR FOR in this kind of weather". They admit they have never felt heat like this before---so much for the true culprit the stinkin humidity!!!!!!
     
    Some Apartment buildings in Chicago, some of which lost power, had buses taking them to a cooling center which the city rigged up in Mc Cormick center. They brought in food and games for kids, movies for adults. I was surprised how fast the city moved on this. It was a wicked day!!!People think we're brave to live here thru our 0 degree winter days. Right now I think its more the last week of July we deserve a metal for.... :blush: :cheer: :ranting:
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    I'M SORRY I WANT TO SHOUT IT FROM THE ROOF TOPS!!!
     
    I ACTUALLY SLEPT LIKE I HAVEN'T SLEPT SINCE THE STROKE.
     
    I'VE BEEN FOLLOWING THE SHANGRILA DIET AND SOME PEOPLE ARE TAKING FLAX SEED OIL CAPS OR FISH OIL AND FOUND IT HELPS THEIR SLEEP, MOOD (byproduct from the sleep?) and BALANCE....I'M TAKING 1000 MG CAPS 2 CAPS AT MORNING, LUNCH AND NIGHT TIME...I'M 5'5" AND 130 (WAS 137 AND EASILY LOST 7 LBS IN THE LAST MONTH ON THIS). BUT I KEPT SAYING I'LL TAKE SLEEP OVER LOSING THE WEIGHT...
     
    GOSH I FEEL REALLY GOOD.....I FEEL LIKE I REALLY SLEPT....LOOK UP OMEGA 3'S....WE SUPPOSIDLY GET TOO MANY OMEGA 6'S AND NOT ENOUGH 3'S..... :big_grin: :cheer: HOPE THIS HELPS SOMEONE!
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    Well the bloom is off the rose. For a mom who's got kids home in summer and a husband with a job that fluxes from 75-90 hour work weeks, I really can only work a 9 mo part time job. And EVEN that needs to be in a limited number given the fatigue factor, I get grumpy. :Tantrum:
     
    LIKE STEVE M> SAYS work involving the eyes like reading and working with numbers really uses more energy than we realize....
     
    I hate how when you're at work and all you can think of is what you need to remember to do at home! Plus so many things in their job description I hadn't done before and I don't want to trust my memory to people's retirement funds. I have enough trouble keepin on top of my own budget!
    No, I need to be here, one frazzled parent at the end of the day is enough. I did not have kids for them to get through the teen years with part time guidance from tird parents- not fair to them..Glad to say I'm home, the real world is still too much for me....I'll hold down our own fort..I really think I'd rather continue to live frugally then watching my income subsidize the dry cleaners and fast and fast food joints... :cheer:
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    Hi, guys! Geez, its getting where I check in about once a month right now.
     
    When you're mom to two teens it seems you're stretched farther than ever in all directions. I really wished to have some kinda part time job so I could feel more like the rest of the world and got to see more people than being always caught in the house.
     
    I always felt when you've got kids, it was always a nice balance, the parttime job. To be out in the world socially, doing something that you hopefully got appreciation for and pay to offset the best job in the world with the crappiest benefits money-wise/ sometimes appreciation-wise. But those out of the blue hugs more than make up for it.
     
    So I must be nuts (been accused of that in the past-pre stroke even) that I still love being a mostly at home mom. I've gotten the chance to spend all of the summers with my kids and now school is calling once again. They've really bent over backward making accomodations so that Betsy (all us girls in the office got on really good--even during the crazi-late minute times till school's out back in june) even when its was nuts with work and parents and kids, we'd still have fun, so now they want me to take on a 12-month position as their bookkeeper. Even to the point from now till the start of school which is 5 weeks away, if I can give them even 10 hours a week and get to the usual 20 hours a week once school starts that they want me for it.
     
    Betsy (the other gal) has three younger kids at the school grades1-3 (But she's a nonstroker, not fatigued and full of calm) but I figure (I've got one 8th grader now and I have fatgue) so since
    basically Betsy and Laura (A board member who's the big-one in finance) and me (in a small role) basically get to set up a new/improved precident-setting,/role for the accounting/business department for the school -were charter school less than 10 years old and already award winning for our environmentalism.
     
    It seems we can make up our own schedules as long as the job gets done when they need it by. My DH is encouraging me in this as I can hopefully learn some stuff that working with the control freak I was, would only let me go so far in my "education" that I can picture maybe using at his office one day. Also this job is literally two blocks from my house. I just Hate the idea of comitting to 12 months a year! Around here my summers with my kids are like sacred (considering dad works a 80-90 hour week this crazy summer) even tho the son now is mostly with dad during the day at the office working.
     
    I just feel bad for my 12yr old who's a girl, she seems to really need a mom/buddy to offset the skirmishes with the bitchy girlfriends. I can't hang her from a hook, don't want her to be bored to death reading at school with me, can't picture her hanging with the grandfolk's....I know its only for a few hours a day, Tuesday thru Thursdays, we'll have to figure something. She keeps saying (right now but she hasn't done it for five weeks yet) she'll hang out at home. What in the house with the TV alone? That's not summer to me and I can't picture an entire summer of it next year. I'll just have to summer school her to death next year as I've had the new freshman/boy doing that this summer. I'll just have to do it in a more extended fashion if I want this to work. I can see how its a great opportunity to learn for me, I just don't want to leave the kids to loose ends...balance , balance, that's what it always seems you're reaching for in life with kids...
    especially as a stroker-keeping your precious energy at a good level and taking care of you even when you're trying to take care of them! And I haven't even got some tan, I've just been trying to keep my plants watered! balance, balance, juggle, juggle.........yi,yi,yi :dribble: so how's your summer or what's left of it--seems like August always flys.........
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    I've been really AWOL this week. Gotta a call from the kids principle asking if I would be interested in helping in the office for the rest of the year (till June 8th) cause their office manager quit that very day over a school decision. Kinda good, cause it was kinda scary going in that office when she was there, she was so crabby. Anyway the other office lady and the other mom that is doing the bookkeeping the other 1/2 of the day that I'm not to be in yet for the day are both really nice and I like them both. So I was pretty stunned I could fall into such a situation. Now I'm almost scared they won't ask all of us to stick together as we seem to work together really good. Such a shocker-sometimes stuff falls together when you're not even thinkin of it... :Clap-Hands: :beer: Haven't felt this gooooooooooood in a long time! Now if it just lasts..Just good timing, I had been volunteering once a week for an hour or so, so that they could all have a staff meeting... :chat: :cheer: Literally 1 mile from our house to boot! How'd I ever get this lucky? The principle even told me now the teachers aren't afraid to come in the office anymore either. lol
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    Now what?????

    By scrappier,

    Ok, just happened to mention to a father(I believe rhemotologist is his specialty seemed to know alot on stroke tho) who's son is the friend of my son, they were p/u my son for a movie, that I was a stroker and my little saga about the chiro and the rescue squad. Then he asked if I was on Palvix or aspirin. I say aspirin 81mg and doc/friend says that's what I take you should take 325mg...so now do I take 325 like he says or 81 like my neuro says or like maybe 162 for a happy medium (me thinkin) on that one??? YIYIYI
     
    I figure since Im 5'5" and 130 and have nothing big going on like smokin or HBP, who the heck knows....like I said to my hubbie, no stroker wants to be there again, but he's normal and will never be able to get from where I'm comin????
     
    It just honk me off, this is my life< I'd like to keep it goin---so what gives? 45 doctors, 45 different answers???? :Tantrum: I wish someone could tell me exactly what is good for me to do???
     
    Doctors can make ya nuts!
     
    without meaning to offend---have a good easter--to whoever observes it....
  12. scrappier
    YA HAVE SOME BAD ONES TOO- EVEN 3 YEARS LATOR (i HATE DAYS LIKE THIS)
     
     
    MY PROBLEM IS THAT I NEVER KNOW WHAT TO BLAME IT ON (THIS IS FOR AJ!, SEE LIFE WON'T BE PERFECT)
     
    I'LL BE 46 THIS WEEKEND SO THE MENOPAUSE THING AND STROKE SYMPTOMS CAN BE THE SAME SO I NEVER KNOW WHAT TO BLAME (MEMORY LOSS IS USUALLY THE BIGGEST),
     
    I ALSO HAVE LOVELY SINUS HEADACHES- SO DIDN'T KNOW IF I HAD A HANGOVER FROM THE XANAX, SINUS, OR MENOPAUSE HEADACHES BUT IT LEADS TO MAKING ME WISH DEATH NOT TO MENTION BEING SIC TO MY STOMACH
     
    I WOKE UP YESTERDAY WITH A WHOPPER OF A HEADACHE. MY DAUGHTER (13) WAS DYING OF A SORE THROAT SO I HAD TO HAVE MY 77 (HOW THE HELL CAN I TAKE CARE OF THEM WHEN THEY STILL TAKE CARE OF ME AT TIMES!)YEAR OLD FATHER DRIVE US (THERE'S NO WAY I COULD DRIVE, I EVEN ROAD WITH A HOTPAC ON MY EYES IN THE CAR) BOTH TO HER PEDIATRITION. I LOOKED LIKED SOMETHING THE CAT DRAGGED IN CAUSE I FELT SO BAD BUT HOW ELSE COULD I GET HER THERE AND GET HER WHAT SHE NEEDED? THEN MY DARN HUSBAND TOOK ME NOT WANTING TO DRAG HIM AWAY FROM HIS WORK AS A SIGN TO LEAVE MY DYING AT HOME TILL 9 LAST NIGHT WHILE THE 15 YR RAN AROUND WITH HIS FRIENDS TILL YOUTH GROUP TIME CAUSE I COULD HAVE CARELESS WHERE HE WAS AND I COULDN'T REALLY HELP MY DAUGHTER AS SHE LAYED ON ONE COUCH AND ME ON THE OTHER WHILE WE FELT EQUALLY CRAPPY. IT WAS DEFINITELY AS DAY FOR THE "BETTER FORGOTTEN" BOOKS
     
    BY THE WAY SHE DID HAVE STREP SO IT WASN'T A WASTED TRIP LIKE SO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST! SO THAT MUCH OF THE GOOD MOM AWARD I'LL TAKE;)
     
     
     
    I'M GOING ON ASPIRIN OFF OF THE PLAVIX SO I WAS AFRAID TO TAKE THE ASPIRIN LAST NIGHT CAUSE I HAD TAKEN EXTRA STRENGTH TYLENOL TWICE SINCE 2PM...I HAD HAD QUITE THE COCKTAIL WHEN I STROKED SO I NEVER KNOW IF IT WEAKEN MY ARTERY (?LOOKING FOR BIZARRE ANSWERS)WHEN THE CHIRO DISSECTED IT, I WAS ON STEROIDS, TYLENOL, CELEBREX AND THEN I TOOK MY BC PILL THE MORNING OF MY STROKE SO I'M REALLY LEERY OF OVERDOING THE DRUGGY STUFF NOW
     
    A DAY BEST FORGOTTEN TILL I GET HIT WITH ANOTHER ONE THEN AGAIN I SEEMTO GET HEADACHES WHEN THE WEATHER IS SHIFTING FROM WINTER TO SPRING AND SUMMER TO FALL???? WHAT THE HELL I'M WEIRD;(
  13. scrappier

    free at last?

    By scrappier,

    Well went to neuro today ALONE! Turned out the motherly mother had slept badly last night and wanted to not venture anywhere. Anyway, my neuro was either not having too good a day or was not as friendly if it doesn't look like your on death's door.
     
    I went to check with him,since this is a debate in our house, between hubbie and I, my meds and if and when I'm free of them. He told me to drop the Lipitor starting tonight and then have a lipid profile in a month. In two more weeks I get to replace the Plavix with 81mg of aspirin. That aspirin I will be on for life.
    Since I adjusted well to taking the Lipitor and Plavix, I wonder if I will notice anything or not.
     
    Good news and nice for the checkbook but kinda scary too. :bouncing_off_wall:
     
    Well spring is springing here in Chicago. My Honeysuckle is budding and bulbs are starting to peak out of the ground! Made it thru another winter! :gleam: bring on the warm weather!
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    Hey there! Long time no see. Tomorrow I've got an appt with my neuro. Haven't seen him since my stroke was 6mo old. I'm now goin on 3 years and 4 mo a few days ago. I wanted to go and see him as my DH and I debate whether I am to continue on Plavix. I remember the stroke doc saying that with my kinda stroke I was at higher risk for 5 years. Then the neuro said he thought maybe it would even be less. Then a nurse that deals with strokers says she thought people who've had strokes stay on Plavix their whole life. So you can see why I want to see what he says now or if he'll check with my old stroke doc in rehab. With chiro strokes, can anyone answer what they've found.
     
    Anyhoo, really my other question pertains to the way strokers handle situations now that they're a stroker. My mother (77, I'm 46 and sorta resent this mothering thing) thinks she should go to my appointment with me tomorrow because she never got to talk to the neuro ever(and my GP way long ago said the family should talk to the neuro) and thinks this is her last shot at it. It maybe was because of her not being able to handle my crying that they put me on antidepressents in hosp in the first place tho I thinks its probably routine. My gosh, a stroke is a big trauma, who hasn't gone thru it shedding tears? But now she's like " "your temper" and "how short you are with me". Who the heck doesn't have a shorter temper when it comes to dealing with family than others????Am I so different...I think stroker or not your family pushes your buttons. Esp mothers and daughters. I am a stroker and I amin the sandwich generation caught between an aging mother and a daughter who is becoming a teen. I'm trying to juggle it all the best I can....Sometimes I feel like saying to her what does she want? "a magic pill" that turns me back to the way I was??? Sorry, face it, it ain't happenen. Plus this s a confusing age, I never know to blame the stroke or perimenapause??? Any advise??? Thx :happydance:
     
    Anyhoo the
  15. scrappier
    I've blogged in the past and just haven't blogged in quite a while and want to get in the habit of writing more often. Writing in many types of genres... and also sign up for some online writing courses...
     
    Hope everyone is keeping warm.
     
    ALSO THAT NOT A SOUL'S PIPES ARE BURSTING (YES THAT'S HAPPENING AND PEOPLE ARE GETTING SEPTIC TANK GAS INSIDE THEIR HOUSES FROM THE COLD, ICK!) THERE IS NOTHING WORSE THAN THIS COLD COUPLED WITH EITHER FIRE OR WATER...I PRAY EVERY NIGHT FOR FIREMEN IN THIS COLD.
     
    This cold has shown me a couple things with my stroke that I hadn't realized. I may finally be sleeping pretty normally (I think going thru a fast menopause may have also been the culprit, I seem to be done with the 1am's wake-ups- I hope!),but I sure have not gotten used to the cold. If my feet get cold that's it. It takes FOREVER for my feet to warm up(my 17lb maine black person cat likes to sit on my feet when I type when my feet are on HER STOOL, so it works for me and her) THAT is another reason why I hate going out on winter nights. NOT just the night driving but the idea of this coldness. I have always hated getting back into a cold car (before stroke)and I go way out of my way to avoid doing anything at night unless DH is going and then I make him go start the car when its cold. Heck, he snomobiles so he loves cold weather. Not me! I admit I like being warm. Being cold somehow makes me feel insecure, that I will have car trouble, another accident, just do not want to have to be out in the cold on the side of a road especially at night most of all! I like being warm and secure and in my jami's by 7. What a turtle for 47! What can I say I've learn my likes and dislikes for winter nights--doesn't sound abnormal to me in a mid-west winter that people say on the radio is colder than antartica! GOSH DO I HOPE THAT'S NOT ACCURATE! I love Chicago in the spring, summer and fall and I like winter just as long as I can see it from my window! Good night! :big_grin: