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Pam:

I know the feeling, but somehow at 36 I m not ready to admit, I have aged and start looking and doing decisions like old people. I still want to do stuff the old way,maybe that's wrong.

hey Amy:

so happy for you. being lefty, you are forced to use your left hand and that's good thing, I guess ou had great hour of therapy and fun

Asha

hey AJ:

It feels so great to write you this, I struggled same questions what you are struglling right now, like acceptance, does it mean you are giving up hope to get better, what helped me bring peace was accepting my today but still keeping faith to improve over the coming years, you will still do the same things you love but maybe little differently, and who knows what future holds for you, I was thinking about developing some programs which helps in visual defects, the therapy which I took for my vision loss. I know if I put my head to it I can do it, but I also need sound board with whom I can share my project like team project, let me know if you are upto it

Asha

hey AJ:

I went through same thing for long time and still trying to figure out what is my purpose, just being productive at work would give me satisfaction I got before, or being stay at home mom and making difference in my kido's life will do the trick, as you saw my last blog I m still fumbling and searching, but I know I will get there by giving my best shot to whatever I can do. I think as someone told me once start doing small things which you like to do and keep on adding up on list and pretty soon you will be happy with your lot in life, I guess we all go through this kind of stages, maybe you are going towards road of acceptance. As usual I blabbered on and might not make any sense

Asha

hey suzie:

yeepee for u, so when r u inviting us to ur house and we will come with small children who like to jump on couch

Asha

hey AJ:

for programming if you know if/else for & while loop u r in for software developement, that's what I had told my doctors when I was still at rehab, though now at job they r starting to use java so still learning my ropes.

Asha

hey Vicky:

I am so glad you are still here for your 1st anniversary, yes we never expected life will take turn like this, but the way I see you as very courageous young lady who went through this whole ordeal and became so strong and also married right guy.

cheers for your first anniversary, I look at my ordeal this way, I was in pits 2 years back, things have to turn around for me and it did.

can't put my thoughts right, but I admire you a lot

Asha

Vicky:

tell your mom I never smoked, never ate meat, never smoked still got stroke, so its destiny, stroke happens mine was caused by pregnancy and hole in heart which allowed stroke to happen. I m so proud that you are still abvle to run your company and support your parents &employess

Asha

hey AJ:

well what you know we have more in common than stroke, I used to be software engineer too, luckily for me, I have no cognative defeciets, its paralysis on left side, and now after 2 years of my stroke and I m 36, I started going back to work part time 2 days a week without any pay, and slowly I am getting there where I might get back to my old job, but you know what after doing it part time for a year, I kind of liking it better, no pressure at work and still get to interact with my collegues.

and I m sure road will become smoother for you as time goes by and you get adjusted to all medical pills.

and don't read side effect labels of the medicine, that would scare you silly.

Asha

Amy:

it's always comforting to know that only nerve cells whose function was to control motor skill are on leave for now, and we are still the same old person beneath. on the separate note nowadays I get hot flash kind of symptom where suddenly out of blue I will become very emotional and can't speak, though that spell passes over very quick. I checked with my gynec since I was missing periods too and she said I m not into premenopause yet

Asha

Butch:

I am anxious to read your 5 part series, this is the book where I have read last 2 parts already, but still eagar to read first 3 parts

Asha

hey AJ:

what a nice way to put it, I think I also almost 14 years ago married my guardian angel

Asha

Sheila:

I had also done PFO closure in june 2004, doctor did tell me that sometime you can get irregular hearbeat, which can scare you, but is treatable with medicine. luckily for me I didn't feel a thing but when I went to see him for my followup visit, he caught it in examination and he was surprised that I didn't feel a thing,

having heart monitor for 30 days is good thing. again my PFO closure is history now and part of my heart.

welcome to our blog community and hope to see you more blogging

Asha

Mary:

wonderful poem or thoughts, after reding this wonderful essay, all falls in place in my life, I do wish to see your blog after surgery how well everything went.

I also have to fight with my kido to get computer on weekends, I m glad he goes to school 9-3 such that I can blog

Asha

hey Rolly:

Happy Birthday to you, and may all your wish come true

Asha

Amy:

you are real fighter in my eyes. pain is never fun so I m flad you found remedy to it

Asha

hey Amy:

so good to know, I think its universal with all moms to worry about their offspring

Asha

hey Ruthie:

great, more you walk around better for your recovery, ur leg will realise oh i have to take weight on this leg, falling is part of learning to walk.

before leaving from rehab I learnt how to get up from floor, since then I m never afraid of falling as long as I can get up from floor, it becomes so easy for everyone to roamaround without wheelchair. I guess I was quite adamant on not using wheelchair or cane, so I acheived both of those goals rigt after I came home, though still have falls on miscalculation and judgement on my part, but hey I m still learning, game is not over till they crement me

Asha

oh man Pam&Jean:

My feelings are hurt as a vegatarian, there are so many dishes one can cook with just vegetables & right spices, even though we are vegatarian my cholestrol is up, so I don't know what I m doing wrong, maybe just breathing and I gain weight. anyways I was always one of that odd case, never did anything to abuse my body and still got stroke, no alcohol, no meat.nocoffee,no smoking, so now I just don't care, whatever is destined to happen with me happen, so might as well just do everything

Asha

Mary:

I don't know about england but here in US PFO closure is fairly simple noninvasive operation, I had done it just 4 months after my stroke, operation lasted for 10 minutes, Prep by doctors were longer than operation. I was kept a day in hospital & was home next day, I got TEE done after a year and everything looks perfect, the device(umbrella) has become part of my heart now, you can PM me anytime if you have any doubts. PFO closure in my mind and in my case was big stepping stone for me, stopped all my worries. and your boys wil be fine without mom for day or two.

lots of hugs and best wishes

ur stroke&PFO buddy

Asha

Kristen:

we all go through whatif and try to blame ourselves for whatever happened to our loved ones. To make peace with yourself and your family, you have to accept that it was destiny, and nothing you could have or would have done to avoid the outcome, but at the same time also trust in God, that there was good reason behind all this ordeal. I am sorry for not coming up with intellgent remark, but this is the theory works for me when I was travelling on my road to acceptance. stop blaming yourself, you did your best, rest is all in God's hands

Asha

hey Amy:

even if we are olympic drop out then we could be still proud of gone through life olympics &come out ahead. I have accepted the fact that my hand migt not be same asbefore, but I m not giving up hope on it, you are just putting things on hold to give yourself break from your therapy though you can get list of exercise you can do on your own at your home

Asha

Sue:

our Indian family is very similar to greek family, ours is not very big family but quite closeknit family, and even with such a small family, it is so hard to keep everybody happy and together and this is just my side of the family, my hubby's side is all back home close to 50, actually I m happy that I don't have to work hard in keeping his family in sync, when we go there, we meet them& be happy together. point I m trying to make it when you have big family it is hard to keep everyone in sync with each other, all have different mind?&agendas, so I feel you can count on only your siblings &parents

Asha

Pam:

congratulations, It feels great when you can get rid of all these hardware we have gathered on our stroke journey, mine shower bench I kept in the bathroom but never used it, finally gave it to person who said he would like to have. I am still using my AFO,& currently I m ok with it, but I will get rid of that thing first chance I will get

I was one of that fickle person who never wanted to use any supports. so no toilet bars in bathroom, except we have railing on both sides on our stairs, and I m still using it for safety sake& for peace of mind of my hubby

Asha

Hi Kim:

welcome to blog community, since I know people through their blogs on thissite, hope to know you more from your blogs, I stroked at 34 after my pregnancy ended prematurely, it has been long 2 years, yes life is not the same but its still not over yet, I m now medically retired at 36, but I know one thing for sure if one door closes on you in life thereareso many other doors open, and you never know what that will bring in your life, that itself is so much excitement, you are here for reason

Asha